sometimes I will get so desperate for human contact

[snoblomov]

that I will write and write and write a great expurgation of my soul, then get ready to post it, preparing to advertise my need for attention.

only to realize that I do not have the courage at all. this time, I will finally click post.

it feels very humiliating. it may sound dramatic, but the lack of engagement is like a visible confirmation of my total separation from society.

it's a relief. it's as much relief as the amputation of a rotting limb.

 

[Blackpillirony]

that I will write and write and write a great expurgation of my soul, then get ready to post it, preparing to advertise my need for attention.

only to realize that I do not have the courage at all. this time, I will finally click post.

it feels very humiliating. it may sound dramatic, but the lack of engagement is like a visible confirmation of my total separation from society.

it's a relief. it's as much relief as the amputation of a rotting limb.

Fascinating thought

 

[Deleted Member 74605]

Ur my dawg but ur making a choice to stay isolated in San Antonio when u could easily get back to Austin if u set ur mind to it and applied some pressure

 

[Nenestar]

No amount of words will feel the same as a warm hug, so I don't bother with that

 

[scotfield]

Ur my dawg but ur making a choice to stay isolated in San Antonio when u could easily get back to Austin if u set ur mind to it and applied some pressure

Give him a hug for me

 

[Deleted Member 74605]

Give him a hug for me

I will

 

[snoblomov]

Ur my dawg but ur making a choice to stay isolated in San Antonio when u could easily get back to Austin if u set ur mind to it and applied some pressure

I'm stuck here for a while as you know, things will come together sooner or later but in the meantime it's just gonna suck.

 

[Deleted Member 74605]

I'm stuck here for a while as you know, things will come together sooner or later but in the meantime it's just gonna suck.

Passively waiting for things to happen on their own time has never and will never work.

 

[snoblomov]

Passively waiting for things to happen on their own time has never and will never work.

its a catch 22 thing between by dad and my workforce liason, unless I lie that I'm living in Austin which I guess is what I'm working up to doing.

 

[Deleted Member 74605]

its a catch 22 thing between by dad and my workforce liason, unless I lie that I'm living in Austin which I guess is what I'm working up to doing.

Fuck the work force liason. Get a cheap e bike, grind on DoorDash until u have enough $ for 1 month rent and then take a greyhound up here. Then once ur here u can go out and job search every day. That’s the only thing that works not indeed or linked in or any of that passively waiting around shit. At least while ur here you’ll be around real ppl and it will do alot of good for ur mental health

 

[snoblomov]

Fuck the work force liason. Get a cheap e bike, grind on DoorDash until u have enough $ for 1 month rent and then take a greyhound up here. Then once ur here u can go out and job search every day. That’s the only thing that works not indeed or linked in or any of that passively waiting around shit. At least while ur here you’ll be around real ppl and it will do alot of good for ur mental health

appreciate your insight but I've gotten jobs through this employment agency and counselor before, and waiting for the bureaucracy to sort it out seems like the less demoralizing route than than walking door to door like some annoying, idiotic pest, facing constant rejection and humiliation with no end in sight.

 

[Deleted Member 74605]

appreciate your insight but I've gotten jobs through this employment agency and counselor before, and waiting for the bureaucracy to sort it out seems like the less demoralizing route than than walking door to door like some annoying, idiotic pest, facing constant rejection and humiliation with no end in sight.

Ur pride is holding u back from making money