dude i need to ascend asap
ive posted about this before but omggg it so brutal, im literally living the .org jokes of boneless ltb x sexy htn couple
it’s so embarrassing when we are out together and i look so bad, and i walk past girls that are so much more attractive, actually have bones and are actually his looksmatch… like it’s to the point where i feel bad for dating him and depriving him of being able to date the actually attractive girl he deserves to be with
and he always says he’s super attracted to me, always compliments me but somehow it makes me feel so guilty, like how can i have possibly done this? i’m a textbook ltb and i don’t even fraud higher with makeup or dress nice this semester. i genuinely do not deserve a guy so good-looking ontop of being sweet and funny, i feel like i did something evil and manipulated him into liking me and being attracted to me by being nice to him or something
i feel so guilty i can’t wait to get surgery and look better, i was already going to do it either way but it feels even more urgent now. i want to look better for him asap, i want him to actually have an attractive girlfriend, and not one who he just likes the personality and managed to feel attraction to the face afterwards
but it’s gonna take so long… i’m going overseas starting august and won’t work for like ~6 months, i’m budgeted to burn thru ~13k usd in that time. so when i get back ill be starting from very slim savings, maybe 3k, and the procedures i need are genioplasty, rhinoplasty, and undereye fat graft. its gonna be so long til i can save for any of those im going to keep being ugly for so long fuck
ive posted about this before but omggg it so brutal, im literally living the .org jokes of boneless ltb x sexy htn couple
it’s so embarrassing when we are out together and i look so bad, and i walk past girls that are so much more attractive, actually have bones and are actually his looksmatch… like it’s to the point where i feel bad for dating him and depriving him of being able to date the actually attractive girl he deserves to be with
and he always says he’s super attracted to me, always compliments me but somehow it makes me feel so guilty, like how can i have possibly done this? i’m a textbook ltb and i don’t even fraud higher with makeup or dress nice this semester. i genuinely do not deserve a guy so good-looking ontop of being sweet and funny, i feel like i did something evil and manipulated him into liking me and being attracted to me by being nice to him or something
i feel so guilty i can’t wait to get surgery and look better, i was already going to do it either way but it feels even more urgent now. i want to look better for him asap, i want him to actually have an attractive girlfriend, and not one who he just likes the personality and managed to feel attraction to the face afterwards
but it’s gonna take so long… i’m going overseas starting august and won’t work for like ~6 months, i’m budgeted to burn thru ~13k usd in that time. so when i get back ill be starting from very slim savings, maybe 3k, and the procedures i need are genioplasty, rhinoplasty, and undereye fat graft. its gonna be so long til i can save for any of those im going to keep being ugly for so long fuck
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