Experience the autistic r****d cycle preventing me from getting girls

[knightmaxxer]

i meet a girl -> she shows interest in me -> i immediately either shut down or try to pretend like i dont like her -> she eventually loses interest-> i scold myself for being retarded -> i meet a girl
closest i ever got to breaking this cycle was when my friend said im being a tsundere and it offended me so much i finally talked to my crush
can any other retards here relate?

 

[knightmaxxer]

problem gets worse if she’s really forward too