The concept of love seems to slowly drift away from my conscious the longer I live

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I used to understand it or thought I did but now I don’t understand it at all.

As of now love seems so unappealing, so unneeded. Now why I think this is simple, throughout most of my life any girl ive met always wanted smth.

Now before u go typing some bs let me explain how this slowly degraded me. When u work for attention is it really considered love. I mean every rls I have been in hours upon hours of work TGAT meant nth.

And sure the person may regret it but not only did they mess up themselves they messed up the other person.

Now tbf theres some good girls out there Im not saying there isn’t. Im js saying the longer I live the sense it makes to be single.

Now, after experiencing a year worth of traumatic events I as a person have lost a piece of myself.

And that piece was certain emotions bc well I had to survive. And saving people from blowing their heads off everyday was the only way to have kept those friends and gf.

The cost of saving them tho was betrayal, loss of empathy, and lack of ability to trust, care, or understand any emotion.

Im not a psycho Im just a byproduct of what helping people did to me.


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