The One Thing I Will Never Have In Life Is The One Thing I Need Most

[SevenColorCrystalBall]

An ltr and actually not being ignored by everyone is the one thing that I need the most but it won't come to me even if I do manage to get my hands on reta or do enouugh crimes to make enough for fixing my face to mask my personality, at best people just make fun of me since I'm a fucking loser and its coming to a point that I'll likely need to choose between dying in the most eye-catching way possible or surrendering to living in loneliness with people I don't even like that much.

 

[Altava]

An ltr and actually not being ignored by everyone is the one thing that I need the most but it won't come to me even if I do manage to get my hands on reta or do enouugh crimes to make enough for fixing my face to mask my personality, at best people just make fun of me since I'm a fucking loser and its coming to a point that I'll likely need to choose between dying in the most eye-catching way possible or surrendering to living in loneliness with people I don't even like that much.

Go see a psychiatrist. This is beyond just looking good or being likeable.

 

[SevenColorCrystalBall]

Go see a psychiatrist. This is beyond just looking good or being likeable.

I only need a psychiatrist because I won't ever not be disliked or ignored

 

[Altava]

I only need a psychiatrist because I won't ever not be disliked or ignored

These thoughts are nothing but pure delusion. No one faces this unless they're a big grape-ist p3d.0phile kitten stomper, get your shit together and seek help.

 

[SevenColorCrystalBall]

These thoughts are nothing but pure delusion. No one faces this unless they're a big grape-ist p3d.0phile kitten stomper, get your shit together and seek help.

Fuck no I am only like this due to my fucked up face and isolation, and I've been in circles with the things listed so that literally is my reality

 

[arisu]

An ltr and actually not being ignored by everyone is the one thing that I need the most but it won't come to me even if I do manage to get my hands on reta or do enouugh crimes to make enough for fixing my face to mask my personality, at best people just make fun of me since I'm a fucking loser and its coming to a point that I'll likely need to choose between dying in the most eye-catching way possible or surrendering to living in loneliness with people I don't even like that much.

go to therapy

 

[Altava]

Fuck no I am only like this due to my fucked up face and isolation, and I've been in circles with the things listed so that literally is my reality

Idk how you look but ugly people can have a life ffs, whatever isolation bs you're struggling with can be fixed. You need meds to calm yourself down rn

 

[SevenColorCrystalBall]

go to therapy

Already did, its useless to me since its addressing a problem that doesn't actually exist.

 

[SevenColorCrystalBall]

Idk how you look but ugly people can have a life ffs, whatever isolation bs you're struggling with can be fixed. You need meds to calm yourself down rn

Also fuck my meds they made me fat asf, my baggy jeans are now normal jeans type of fat

 

[Altava]

Also fuck my meds they made me fat asf, my baggy jeans are now normal jeans type of fat

Meds don't make you fat food makes you fat

 

[Altava]

Already did, its useless to me since its addressing a problem that doesn't actually exist.

It's your attitude self sabotaging you

 

[SevenColorCrystalBall]

Meds don't make you fat food makes you fat

Meds make you hungry as shit and ruin your metabolism, meds make you binge eat even worse than before

 

[Altava]

Meds make you hungry as shit and ruin your metabolism, meds make you binge eat even worse than before

You can still control yourself, I've had all types of meds, those that suppress and those that accentuate your appetite. Getting out of suicidality and regaining social function comes first, you can lose weight later if anything.

 

[SevenColorCrystalBall]

You can still control yourself, I've had all types of meds, those that suppress and those that accentuate your appetite. Getting out of suicidality and regaining social function comes first, you can lose weight later if anything.

Self control is simply not usefukl in my case since food is all I can think about, also I'm not gonna do shit so I don''t need to prioritize getting out of it

 

[Altava]

Self control is simply not usefukl in my case since food is all I can think about, also I'm not gonna do shit so I don''t need to prioritize getting out of it

You can go to a therapist and express how big of an issue the food thing is. Just get help

 

[SevenColorCrystalBall]

You can go to a therapist and express how big of an issue the food thing is. Just get help

I tried, she just calls it teen stuff.

 

[Altava]

I tried, she just calls it teen stuff.

Same thing happened to me as a teen. Survived that crap, you can do it.

 

[Deleted Member 129204]

An ltr and actually not being ignored by everyone is the one thing that I need the most but it won't come to me even if I do manage to get my hands on reta or do enouugh crimes to make enough for fixing my face to mask my personality, at best people just make fun of me since I'm a fucking loser and its coming to a point that I'll likely need to choose between dying in the most eye-catching way possible or surrendering to living in loneliness with people I don't even like that much.

Just become a mass murder than 15 year old girls will make edits of you