that one video of chico where he’s taking selfies w everyone genuinely stirs something in me every time i see it because i know that it’s what i want out of life. more than anything i want to be seen not as a person but something more, like my looks are so good it supersedes human comprehension. my dream is to model, not because i really care about fashion or anything but because i want to prove im good enough to be seen in that way. j want peoples hearts to fill with both hatred and aspiration when they see me. anyways shit like this makes me wonder if i’m a narcissist or just really attention seeking.