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- There is still time to stop the key from turning.
There is no greater feeling on this planet than clarity; such a grand and mighty award. Even if it lasts a few hours, it is beyond great. So much more lasting, motivating and personal than being with people, drinking, having good sex or whatever. Nothing, none of it can compare to the moment when all of life clicks, when the universe sings to you and when the stars finally line up for your sake to tell you that you were correct, that all of your troubles and suffering found a solution, found a truth in the world of lies and self destruction.
Do not get me wrong, I always felt a pull somewhere in my head. Sometimes it is just a numbing pull and other times it is madness. There is no worse feeling than madness, when you feel you are about to snap; when the last 10 years of tension comes all to an end and out of nowhere. It is like I feel my psyche being ripped into two minds, it is vile. Yet not once, not never or ever have I snapped from it and neither will I ever. That is a simple fact, a true and logical fact of life and reality. Unlike the rest of humanimalia that exists on this planet, this planet and the existence favours me as it knows me best unlike the humanimalians who try to use it and harm it.
I will keep going, I will learn more and know more. Life will award me clarity; so one day I can lend charity for the few true and innocent, to keep them far from humanimalia and it's kindreds.
Do not get me wrong, I always felt a pull somewhere in my head. Sometimes it is just a numbing pull and other times it is madness. There is no worse feeling than madness, when you feel you are about to snap; when the last 10 years of tension comes all to an end and out of nowhere. It is like I feel my psyche being ripped into two minds, it is vile. Yet not once, not never or ever have I snapped from it and neither will I ever. That is a simple fact, a true and logical fact of life and reality. Unlike the rest of humanimalia that exists on this planet, this planet and the existence favours me as it knows me best unlike the humanimalians who try to use it and harm it.
I will keep going, I will learn more and know more. Life will award me clarity; so one day I can lend charity for the few true and innocent, to keep them far from humanimalia and it's kindreds.
