PlayboyDex
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For me as someone with ADS, i feel absolute HORRIBLE when a guy who looks like me but is BETTER , than me in every category is around. When I say look like me, I mean my same pheno and aesthetic , but is simply just a better looking version of me.
For example, if i see some goodlooking asian guy who mogs me to death i don't feel this sort of hyper threatened posture kick in since i know we are for the most part, not going to be attracting AND at the same time going for the same type of girls so my pool of women I can go for doesn't feel threatened.
Just today, what sparked me to make this thread, around 10-15 minutes ago, a guy who pretty much could pass as my older CHAD brother, walked by the study room i was in and i swear to you my heart genuinley started to sting.
This is highly due to the fact that in my entire time here at uni, only 2 guys mog tf out of me AND also have the same pheno, AND niche style. These are both hockey players at our school so I never felt "threatened" by these 2 guys since they are gonna go after and bag girls with a lot of status and that are also mega gl, women i don't want and cannot attain AT ALL, and do not pursue for these reasons.
So today, was the FIRST time in months that I actually felt threatned by a guy, my entire time at uni i have only felt it one other time, and it was not a guy who looked like me, it was just the first decent looking guy that i saw my oneitis bring around our dorm and it scared tf out me because before that, she only was around subhumans and legit weirdos and this guy WAS NEITHER.
Fuck my brain is so fucking fried.
What makes it even worse, is that i am NERFED, i CANNOT COMPETE WITH THIS GUY FOR THE WOMEN THAT WE WOULD BOTH ATTRACT AND GET.
FUcking eh man the due is 6'3 MINIMUM , GL , GOATED HAIR, and his outfit was good asf and he has an athletic build.
Brutal asf knowing i won't ever be that. Whatas even scarier is that minutes before i saw this guy, i was mentally beating tf out of myself for not being what i COULD and should have been
I have been BPed since 2022, i was a 5'11 LTN to SUBHUMAN.
Due to my lack of effort, and lack of actual discpline, and INTELECT, i did not capitalize on the little puberty i had left, and i am not around 6'0.5, 170 pounds 14% BF, SUBHUMAN FACE, and shit fucking hair, with no money and no prospects in life
I should have been and could have been 6'2-6'3, Strong Chadlite facially, Good hair, thousands of dollars upwards of $30K+, 180-190 pounds top tier build, and goated fucking hair with the brightest future in the fucking city.
No , instead i am a subhuman r****d who aint amount to jack shit, even when i was "goodlooking" i didnt even fully max out, not due to time constraints, but due to me getting content with my results and simply only wanting to maintain what i already had,
not again, I MUST mog facially, that is the only way i can greatly defeat men like this, i must show no mercy this time around, i am not going to do the bare minimum, I WILL become Chad SMV, no stone left unturned, I CANNOT LET MYSELF LOSE TO MYSELF EVER AGAIN.
For me as someone with ADS, i feel absolute HORRIBLE when a guy who looks like me but is BETTER , than me in every category is around. When I say look like me, I mean my same pheno and aesthetic , but is simply just a better looking version of me.
For example, if i see some goodlooking asian guy who mogs me to death i don't feel this sort of hyper threatened posture kick in since i know we are for the most part, not going to be attracting AND at the same time going for the same type of girls so my pool of women I can go for doesn't feel threatened.
Just today, what sparked me to make this thread, around 10-15 minutes ago, a guy who pretty much could pass as my older CHAD brother, walked by the study room i was in and i swear to you my heart genuinley started to sting.
This is highly due to the fact that in my entire time here at uni, only 2 guys mog tf out of me AND also have the same pheno, AND niche style. These are both hockey players at our school so I never felt "threatened" by these 2 guys since they are gonna go after and bag girls with a lot of status and that are also mega gl, women i don't want and cannot attain AT ALL, and do not pursue for these reasons.
So today, was the FIRST time in months that I actually felt threatned by a guy, my entire time at uni i have only felt it one other time, and it was not a guy who looked like me, it was just the first decent looking guy that i saw my oneitis bring around our dorm and it scared tf out me because before that, she only was around subhumans and legit weirdos and this guy WAS NEITHER.
Fuck my brain is so fucking fried.
What makes it even worse, is that i am NERFED, i CANNOT COMPETE WITH THIS GUY FOR THE WOMEN THAT WE WOULD BOTH ATTRACT AND GET.
FUcking eh man the due is 6'3 MINIMUM , GL , GOATED HAIR, and his outfit was good asf and he has an athletic build.
Brutal asf knowing i won't ever be that. Whatas even scarier is that minutes before i saw this guy, i was mentally beating tf out of myself for not being what i COULD and should have been
I have been BPed since 2022, i was a 5'11 LTN to SUBHUMAN.
Due to my lack of effort, and lack of actual discpline, and INTELECT, i did not capitalize on the little puberty i had left, and i am not around 6'0.5, 170 pounds 14% BF, SUBHUMAN FACE, and shit fucking hair, with no money and no prospects in life
I should have been and could have been 6'2-6'3, Strong Chadlite facially, Good hair, thousands of dollars upwards of $30K+, 180-190 pounds top tier build, and goated fucking hair with the brightest future in the fucking city.
No , instead i am a subhuman r****d who aint amount to jack shit, even when i was "goodlooking" i didnt even fully max out, not due to time constraints, but due to me getting content with my results and simply only wanting to maintain what i already had,
not again, I MUST mog facially, that is the only way i can greatly defeat men like this, i must show no mercy this time around, i am not going to do the bare minimum, I WILL become Chad SMV, no stone left unturned, I CANNOT LET MYSELF LOSE TO MYSELF EVER AGAIN.
