Serious This might be the worst era of my life

[Mandy?]

Even though I jestered all night on this forum,I genuinely believe I’m not alright. This has all declined since the summer break blah blah blah,but ever since school started I can’t help but notice how fucking worse I got compared to just 2 months ago. No actual friends,actual ones changed school so in terms of others I’m basically a replacement or backup,I can’t be bothered to be that so might as well not talk to anyone right? I have spent insane amount of money on just useless shit. I starred at the wall this morning realizing I’m lay and sit in the same position for most of the day,I have nothing else to do and mentalcel response makes me scared to go to school everyday. I might sound like a joke but it seriously makes me scared even though I know nothing bad is going to happen to me. I have probably disappointed tons of people the past few months,I genuinely don’t feel the same at all.

I wish I could just get out,walk,walk and keep walking till my legs give out. I have nowhere to go or hide since even the current home situation is not even far from good.

 

[Penalizer69]

Most basic response ever but whitepill as ever

In terms of your home situation getting some kind of hobby (maybe a sport) if you don't already have one can help

 

[noticecel]

we're all gonna make it vro, stay strong

 

[Mandy?]

Most basic response ever but whitepill as ever

In terms of your home situation getting some kind of hobby (maybe a sport) if you don't already have one can help

No human can accept the Whitepill,”it is what it is” is simply just words in reality everything that around will affect you sooner or later.

 

[Mandy?]

Yeah I’m gonna do what I said,walk till I can’t walk.

 

[Penalizer69]

No human can accept the Whitepill,”it is what it is” is simply just words in reality everything that around will affect you sooner or later.

Idk about that stoicism is very real and helped me alot I'm not disagreeing with the last part though

Whitepill is more just about improving in everyway you can

 

[Mandy?]

Idk about that stoicism is very real and helped me alot I'm not disagreeing with the last part though

Whitepill is more just about improving in everyway you can

Stoicism has cheered me for the 3-4 months but I'm telling you it doesn't last.i tried coping with egoistic beliefs that it's never my fault and I'm never the problem but has that given me any benefit now? It hasn't,sooner or later everything that's around you will bend whatever you believe in. I have no attic anymore that was my comfort and I guess safe spot so i have no other option than to just be as far away as possible by foot.

 

[Mandy?]

Everything I breathe in irritates my throat

 

[Penalizer69]

Stoicism has cheered me for the 3-4 months but I'm telling you it doesn't last.i tried coping with egoistic beliefs that it's never my fault and I'm never the problem but has that given me any benefit now? It hasn't,sooner or later everything that's around you will bend whatever you believe in. I have no attic anymore that was my comfort and I guess safe spot so i have no other option than to just be as far away as possible by foot.

You can find another spot outside somewhere

 

[Mandy?]

You can find another spot outside somewhere

I can't find and don't have another spot that safe and comfortable,it gets cold in the winter but I had blankets.which is better than any spot outside in thew cold.

 

[Mogden]

Even though I jestered all night on this forum,I genuinely believe I’m not alright. This has all declined since the summer break blah blah blah,but ever since school started I can’t help but notice how fucking worse I got compared to just 2 months ago. No actual friends,actual ones changed school so in terms of others I’m basically a replacement or backup,I can’t be bothered to be that so might as well not talk to anyone right? I have spent insane amount of money on just useless shit. I starred at the wall this morning realizing I’m lay and sit in the same position for most of the day,I have nothing else to do and mentalcel response makes me scared to go to school everyday. I might sound like a joke but it seriously makes me scared even though I know nothing bad is going to happen to me. I have probably disappointed tons of people the past few months,I genuinely don’t feel the same at all.

I wish I could just get out,walk,walk and keep walking till my legs give out. I have nowhere to go or hide since even the current home situation is not even far from good.

Sounds like it’s time to join the marines

 

[Mandy?]

Sounds like it’s time to join the marines

Not a big fan of escaping slavery to attend a even bigger level of slavery.

 

[Mogden]

B

Not a big fan of escaping slavery to attend a even bigger level of slavery.

Bigger or just more direct?

 

[Mona🌹]

i don’t have any insane life changing advice it’s not like my life is perfect to tell you how to improve yours but i hope it gets better vro

 

[Mandy?]

B

Bigger or just more direct?

I guess both

 

[johnfkennedy]

Even though I jestered all night on this forum,I genuinely believe I’m not alright. This has all declined since the summer break blah blah blah,but ever since school started I can’t help but notice how fucking worse I got compared to just 2 months ago. No actual friends,actual ones changed school so in terms of others I’m basically a replacement or backup,I can’t be bothered to be that so might as well not talk to anyone right? I have spent insane amount of money on just useless shit. I starred at the wall this morning realizing I’m lay and sit in the same position for most of the day,I have nothing else to do and mentalcel response makes me scared to go to school everyday. I might sound like a joke but it seriously makes me scared even though I know nothing bad is going to happen to me. I have probably disappointed tons of people the past few months,I genuinely don’t feel the same at all.

I wish I could just get out,walk,walk and keep walking till my legs give out. I have nowhere to go or hide since even the current home situation is not even far from good.

Nietzche wrote ten hours a day, despite debilitating illnesses, severe migraines, total insomnia, digestive issues from all the medicine, eyesight that "only provided him an hour and a half of vision a day".

He did not write that he wished for a better life, but worked whenever he could because he knew there was nothing to do but move forward. You will have to change eventually, and you are the agonist of change. You need to understand there are certain parts of your life you've been holding onto that create that cycle of dopamine abuse inside you, and other stuff that you fear constantly yet always want to change. I really encourage you to just change explicitly. I personally view change as nothing more than a micro-step in life. A small adventure.

A wise man once told me:
You'll never reach the top if all you do is circle the mountain looking for an easier path

 

[Mandy?]

Nietzche wrote ten hours a day, despite debilitating illnesses, severe migraines, total insomnia, digestive issues from all the medicine, eyesight that "only provided him an hour and a half of vision a day".

He did not write that he wished for a better life, but worked whenever he could because he knew there was nothing to do but move forward. You will have to change eventually, and you are the agonist of change. You need to understand there are certain parts of your life you've been holding onto that create that cycle of dopamine abuse inside you, and other stuff that you fear constantly yet always want to change. I really encourage you to just change explicitly. I personally view change as nothing more than a micro-step in life. A small adventure.

A wise man once told me:
You'll never reach the top if all you do is circle the mountain looking for an easier path

I never said I want another life. I basically said "how can I fix mine?",don't think I just gave up. I'm still trying to find solutions and on what to do currently.