I vulked all through Winter and then cut January-March (Basically gained 10kf and lost 6-7, no joke intended. So it was really crazy successful tbh). In April I wanted to give myself some grace for a bit, enjoy the holiday and eat at maintenance. It escalated to me eating at maintenance or slightly above for at least 3 weeks. Obvs lost some progress in my summer bad from that. I feel like I had restricted myself to the point where now that I let loose just a bit my body as trying to get in everything in could. I feel like I couldn’t stop going slightly above maintenance everyday but I needed to stop desperately. Summer is basically on the cusp. Some days where it really escalates I purged as well cause ik some bodybuilding coaches even tell you to (I don’t compete, it’s just a hobby and also about looks). Like 3 days ago I locked in somehow. My mindset somehow shifted. What always really helps me when I really wanna achieve something is visualizing it. Visualize what you could have and then rub it in your own face. Shame yourself. Tell your self all you have to do to get what u want is sit ur ass down and close ur fucking mouth. Such a cheap price to pay for your dream body fat percentage. Costs nothing, in fact even saves you money. How stupid and useless do you have to be to take something you wish for so desperately away from yourself. And then visualize all the glory you’d be bathing in in front of the mirror or on the street when people look at you or even strangers complimenting you for being pretty (actually happened to me the other day, I didn’t loose that much progress but I would’ve if I continued). Really look at yourself and ask yourself if you’d take that away from yourself for a bar of chocolate. Really kills the cravings. Als drink a lot caffeine to suppress appetite and try to keep busy. Stay out of the house. Whether it’s school, library, friends (no food activities) or the gym. Spend as much time as possible not just sitting in ur room where u can grab food at any time. And if you do want a treat buy just that treat and don’t keep stuff stored in ur house.