I’m a loner tbh, no friends at all and anywhere I go I usually sit in the bathrooms alone, whether that to an event, school, function etc, I wouldnt class myself as particularly poor although money doesn’t help with the verbal and physical abuse I receive daily, whenever I’m alone no one says anything, rather they talk behind my back, but when I come out, it’s like there’s no filter and my entire family points out how much of a weirdo I am, my own parents said they hate me and that I should just get out of the house, not once or twice, but daily. I usually cry every second day if not every day uncontrollably, I’ve attempted to kms once but that experience was wretched, I don’t wanna go through it again but if there are ways to cope lemme know (p.s. Ik I’ll never experience love so the thought of normally interacting with anyone supposedly empathetic (women) is just not happening based on every interaction being played in my head multiple times even days after speaking with someone