STORY
Everyone was dancing and singing, DJ played some pop or what, while I and 3 my friends sat in the back talking about something. They were dancing without me, no one was bothered by me not being there. I went out and talked with my friend about politics, tanks, NVD etc, and no one from that big group even tried to talk to me. They still consider me as their friend, Donxt they? Do they?
I do not brag that Ixm lil bit down because of this, just interesting.
Also, you can say "oh, then why didnxt you go if you wanted?" i didnxt want to go there, but still it would be great if at least one out of 20 people asked me.
But, still talking with three friends was really good. Found out new things, like how NVD works. And I didnxt get drunk, as most of them.
MAIN PROBLEM
Do they still consider me as their friend?
Since 2 semester of 8th grade I always felt as the odd one. Like, I was talking to many, but still felt that I wasnxt needed. I had a feeling that they wanted to "take me away" from them, that ixm the one who is just npc(though ixm not, I try to be very friendly and talkative). And today, I finally felt it totally. After the party they went somewhere, and no one even came to say goodbye to me. Now I not only hate happy couples, I hate these people, who I forcedly call "classmates". I hate everything about them. Almost all of them are smokers and drinkers. Most of them are imbeciles. Some of them have had more relationships than I have lived years. And, as I see, they all donxt consider me as a part of their friend group. I hate them. And then people say that i canxt be egotistical. How can I not, if people force me to?
Everyone was dancing and singing, DJ played some pop or what, while I and 3 my friends sat in the back talking about something. They were dancing without me, no one was bothered by me not being there. I went out and talked with my friend about politics, tanks, NVD etc, and no one from that big group even tried to talk to me. They still consider me as their friend, Donxt they? Do they?
I do not brag that Ixm lil bit down because of this, just interesting.
Also, you can say "oh, then why didnxt you go if you wanted?" i didnxt want to go there, but still it would be great if at least one out of 20 people asked me.
But, still talking with three friends was really good. Found out new things, like how NVD works. And I didnxt get drunk, as most of them.
MAIN PROBLEM
Do they still consider me as their friend?
Since 2 semester of 8th grade I always felt as the odd one. Like, I was talking to many, but still felt that I wasnxt needed. I had a feeling that they wanted to "take me away" from them, that ixm the one who is just npc(though ixm not, I try to be very friendly and talkative). And today, I finally felt it totally. After the party they went somewhere, and no one even came to say goodbye to me. Now I not only hate happy couples, I hate these people, who I forcedly call "classmates". I hate everything about them. Almost all of them are smokers and drinkers. Most of them are imbeciles. Some of them have had more relationships than I have lived years. And, as I see, they all donxt consider me as a part of their friend group. I hate them. And then people say that i canxt be egotistical. How can I not, if people force me to?
