truecel trait: you've never felt close to anybody, not even your own parents

[icnone]

My parents raised me, took care of me, told me they loved me, and whatnot, but I never really felt emotionally close to them at all. I had an argument with my mother recently, and the next morning she texted me to say she loved me, but I felt nothing, just as I've never felt anything toward them or from them.

At school, I've never felt close to anybody either. I've never really felt that I had somebody I could truly speak my mind to, unfiltered, and even if I did, I fear my words wouldn't express how I truly feel, or that the other person wouldn't understand or be able to walk in my shoes.

My greatest fear is that I will spend the remainder of my life like this. Even if I do find a gf, the corner of my mind that weighs on me the most would always stay cordoned off from her.

Anyone else feel this way?

 

[Nenestar]

me too, bud

 

[arniedagoats]

kinda, however i love my parents, i always scream at them, were constantly angry at eachither, but i love them and i love other ppl and i always feel bad, however still emotionless sometimes

 

[</3]

My parents raised me, took care of me, told me they loved me, and whatnot, but I never really felt emotionally close to them at all. I had an argument with my mother recently, and the next morning she texted me to say she loved me, but I felt nothing, just as I've never felt anything toward them or from them.

At school, I've never felt close to anybody either. I've never really felt that I had somebody I could truly speak my mind to, unfiltered, and even if I did, I fear my words wouldn't express how I truly feel, or that the other person wouldn't understand or be able to walk in my shoes.

My greatest fear is that I will spend the remainder of my life like this. Even if I do find a gf, the corner of my mind that weighs on me the most would always stay cordoned off from her.

Anyone else feel this way?

truecel trait 2; you confront the reason you feel this way and improve, you unlock all the emotions youve hidden inside yourself.
you arent imprisoned ot this way of thinking until you die, but its on you to figure it out.

 

[arniedagoats]

truecel trait 2; you confront the reason you feel this way and improve, you unlock all the emotions youve hidden inside yourself.
you arent imprisoned ot this way of thinking until you die, but its on you to figure it out.

how

 

[jest]

i feel this way 100%
i used to be very clingy to my mom when i was younger but i don't believe i actually have ever felt love towards her, or really anyone else besides one person. i have never felt loved by anyone though despite multiple attempts from multiple people. i feel no emotional closeness or connection towards my parents or friends really

 

[</3]

how

there is no single path, its individual to you.
youll clown me for this but deadass journalling helped me so much. it forces you to write out what you dont want to say

 

[icnone]

there is no single path, its individual to you.
youll clown me for this but deadass journalling helped me so much. it forces you to write out what you dont want to say

journalling unironically made me feel worse
whenever I'm feeling a little down I use it to write more essays on why I am a POS and by the end of writing it I feel super miserable
it's like an alcohol of sorts

 

[</3]

journalling unironically made me feel worse
whenever I'm feeling a little down I use it to write more essays on why I am a POS and by the end of writing it I feel super miserable
it's like an alcohol of sorts

hm. may i reccomend journalling not from a place of self pity/hatred, but from an objective standpoint?

 

[drchad]

truecel trait 2; you confront the reason you feel this way and improve, you unlock all the emotions youve hidden inside yourself.
you arent imprisoned ot this way of thinking until you die, but its on you to figure it out.

Wow

 

[icnone]

hm. may i reccomend journalling not from a place of self pity/hatred, but from an objective standpoint?

what do you mean by "objective?" like when you journal what do you focus on?

 

[</3]

what do you mean by "objective?" like when you journal what do you focus on?

i havent journalled in a long time honestly. when i do, i try to state things as they are, then state how i feel. then i try to delve into WHY i feel that way and really nitpick that, whether its past experiences or whatnot. its very useful to have to force yourself to articulate it, and ive found that you can actually unpack a lot of things just by slowing down and having to write about it. granted that when i did journal, i was reading a lot of philosophy and psychology literature, which definitely helped with the thought process

 

[roper.]

My parents raised me, took care of me, told me they loved me, and whatnot, but I never really felt emotionally close to them at all. I had an argument with my mother recently, and the next morning she texted me to say she loved me, but I felt nothing, just as I've never felt anything toward them or from them.

At school, I've never felt close to anybody either. I've never really felt that I had somebody I could truly speak my mind to, unfiltered, and even if I did, I fear my words wouldn't express how I truly feel, or that the other person wouldn't understand or be able to walk in my shoes.

My greatest fear is that I will spend the remainder of my life like this. Even if I do find a gf, the corner of my mind that weighs on me the most would always stay cordoned off from her.

Anyone else feel this way?

ive wondered about this too, its weird