yknow i think i accepeted i probably wouldnt get a girl when i was like 11/12
yeah it sucks
its not cause of my stats i mean yeah if i was chad it would be different but im sittting in top percentiles for height and face
its just being neurodivergent
its not being able to look them in the eye
its lying
its being a depressed f*g in my room doing things people would consider insane
in reality i do this all for a chance at a girl
but i dont think ill ever be able to fix my brain
im crushing grams of pregabalin when i rarely go out to still be high inhib
its definetley hard to put into words
one time when i was in germany i was with a bunch of 18-19 year old german girls who were calling me a model and saying i was very handsome
even though i was piss drunk i wasnt able to talk to them
its like im the one messing up everything but its unfixable
hoping that my diy filler and botoxs make up for some of it
but id give anything to be normal again
yeah it sucks
its not cause of my stats i mean yeah if i was chad it would be different but im sittting in top percentiles for height and face
its just being neurodivergent
its not being able to look them in the eye
its lying
its being a depressed f*g in my room doing things people would consider insane
in reality i do this all for a chance at a girl
but i dont think ill ever be able to fix my brain
im crushing grams of pregabalin when i rarely go out to still be high inhib
its definetley hard to put into words
one time when i was in germany i was with a bunch of 18-19 year old german girls who were calling me a model and saying i was very handsome
even though i was piss drunk i wasnt able to talk to them
its like im the one messing up everything but its unfixable
hoping that my diy filler and botoxs make up for some of it
but id give anything to be normal again
