Experience vent

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I hate because I never had a reason to be in this world, I was a wanted child in a poor family where a father and mother wanted to have a daughter. A son and a daughter, a family of four. But it took them four tries, five because one died in my mother's womb from the stress and her blood pressure was too unstable.

I hate all people who have a functional family, I completely hate and envy people who receive love and affection from their partners or loved ones.

I can't help but wish them the worst, but I know all too well that I am the problem, that I bother others because I am not enough to have the love and affection that I want so much.

To think that I spent my afternoons crying because I didn't know why my mom hit me and yelled at me, only when I wanted to ask her to go for a walk.

I was always a nuisance to her, just another mouth to feed and another mouth that never stops making noise.

This world gives me nothing but misery; if I had a beautiful family, I wouldn't be here, I'd surely be busy with something else.

I am in this world by accident.

 

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@🌑Rhasta-Fara🌑 there you go

 

[Deleted Member 128134]

I hope it gets better for you, and it really will do. You just gotta endure the worst of the worst. It will be months or years worth, but life will get better I'm sure.

Your mom shouldn't have hit you. I really advice you to stay away from the source of stress as possible. You gotta need to protect your peace.

 

[JDD8]

I hate because I never had a reason to be in this world, I was a wanted child in a poor family where a father and mother wanted to have a daughter. A son and a daughter, a family of four. But it took them four tries, five because one died in my mother's womb from the stress and her blood pressure was too unstable.

I hate all people who have a functional family, I completely hate and envy people who receive love and affection from their partners or loved ones.

I can't help but wish them the worst, but I know all too well that I am the problem, that I bother others because I am not enough to have the love and affection that I want so much.

To think that I spent my afternoons crying because I didn't know why my mom hit me and yelled at me, only when I wanted to ask her to go for a walk.

I was always a nuisance to her, just another mouth to feed and another mouth that never stops making noise.

This world gives me nothing but misery; if I had a beautiful family, I wouldn't be here, I'd surely be busy with something else.

I am in this world by accident.

Damn bro im sorry, i hope it gets better