why am i always so guilty

[yung foid]

sometimes when guys or friends show any liking towards me i feel guilty like im being deceitful and sinful and God's mad at me so i pray over and over and then i cut them off so God will fully forgive me. its so so stupid it happens with food too. theres times i get into these small episodes or wtv u wna call it where all of a sudden food feels sinful so if i eat or even just crave food in my head i feel so so ashamed and disgusted at myself to the point where im nauseous so i dont eat for days bcs of it. everything i do it feels like God is angry with me so every day is just constant prayer and repentance

 

[Penalizer69]

I think ur parents fucked you up

 

[Bojack]

you need kevin trudeau's relationship processes

 

[Pento]

sometimes when guys or friends show any liking towards me i feel guilty like im being deceitful and sinful and God's mad at me so i pray over and over and then i cut them off so God will fully forgive me. its so so stupid it happens with food too. theres times i get into these small episodes or wtv u wna call it where all of a sudden food feels sinful so if i eat or even just crave food in my head i feel so so ashamed and disgusted at myself to the point where im nauseous. i dont eat for days bcs of it, i dont feel like someone with an ed i just feel like a sinner. everything i do it feels like God is angry with me so every day is just constant prayer and repentance

Kami sama

 

[BigDihDiddy]

I think ur parents fucked you up

Bro if only she thought of the coke lines and yacht parties that way and leave the friends and food as good

 

[BigDihDiddy]

tho tbh ur probably ok or maybe subconsciously your guilty of something ur doing to them? Tho if ur not doing anything wrong to ur knowledge than it’s maybe some self hatred due to childhood pressure

 

[Deleted Member 102155]

What ?

 

[s3amoonbear]

sometimes when guys or friends show any liking towards me i feel guilty like im being deceitful and sinful and God's mad at me so i pray over and over and then i cut them off so God will fully forgive me. its so so stupid it happens with food too. theres times i get into these small episodes or wtv u wna call it where all of a sudden food feels sinful so if i eat or even just crave food in my head i feel so so ashamed and disgusted at myself to the point where im nauseous. i dont eat for days bcs of it, i dont feel like someone with an ed i just feel like a sinner. everything i do it feels like God is angry with me so every day is just constant prayer and repentance

Is that why I'm ignored

 

[looksmaxxer132]

I feel guilty when people show interest because I’m truly unlikable

 

[tonisworld]

sometimes when guys or friends show any liking towards me i feel guilty like im being deceitful and sinful and God's mad at me so i pray over and over and then i cut them off so God will fully forgive me. its so so stupid it happens with food too. theres times i get into these small episodes or wtv u wna call it where all of a sudden food feels sinful so if i eat or even just crave food in my head i feel so so ashamed and disgusted at myself to the point where im nauseous. i dont eat for days bcs of it, i dont feel like someone with an ed i just feel like a sinner. everything i do it feels like God is angry with me so every day is just constant prayer and repentance

Have you tried therapy lil one. I mean it respectfully I genuinely think you'd benefit from it. Everyone would to some extent.

 

[yung foid]

Bro if only she thought of the coke lines and yacht parties that way and leave the friends and food as good

i do feel guilty abt those i feel guilty abt many things, but parties arent smt that i actually need. its worse once it gets to things i physically need like food. this morning was the first time i had eaten since sunday night even tho i was physically so hungry and wanted to eat

 

[s3amoonbear]

i do feel guilty abt those i feel guilty abt many things, but parties arent smt that i actually need. its worse once it gets to things i physically need like food. this morning was the first time i had eaten since sunday night even tho i was physically so hungry and wanted to eat

I hope you get better

 

[junebug]

sometimes when guys or friends show any liking towards me i feel guilty like im being deceitful and sinful and God's mad at me so i pray over and over and then i cut them off so God will fully forgive me. its so so stupid it happens with food too. theres times i get into these small episodes or wtv u wna call it where all of a sudden food feels sinful so if i eat or even just crave food in my head i feel so so ashamed and disgusted at myself to the point where im nauseous. i dont eat for days bcs of it, i dont feel like someone with an ed i just feel like a sinner. everything i do it feels like God is angry with me so every day is just constant prayer and repentance

God loves you and so do I
He wants you to be a good person, but don't worry about being good so much that you end up hurting yourself in the long run

 

[tonisworld]

i do feel guilty abt those i feel guilty abt many things, but parties arent smt that i actually need. its worse once it gets to things i physically need like food. this morning was the first time i had eaten since sunday night even tho i was physically so hungry and wanted to eat

Please get some help kido.

 

[Starlet]

sometimes when guys or friends show any liking towards me i feel guilty like im being deceitful and sinful and God's mad at me so i pray over and over and then i cut them off so God will fully forgive me. its so so stupid it happens with food too. theres times i get into these small episodes or wtv u wna call it where all of a sudden food feels sinful so if i eat or even just crave food in my head i feel so so ashamed and disgusted at myself to the point where im nauseous. i dont eat for days bcs of it, i dont feel like someone with an ed i just feel like a sinner. everything i do it feels like God is angry with me so every day is just constant prayer and repentance

Not diagnosing you obviously just noting an observation, I have ocd and a lot of what you described, especially the first part, sounds similar to religious OCD. Try looking it up maybe. I don’t know all of it but I’ve experienced similar, without the religious part, but that sounds like that’s the core facet for you

 

[yung foid]

Have you tried therapy lil one. I mean it respectfully I genuinely think you'd benefit from it. Everyone would to some extent.

i have, not for this exact reason but my parents hv tried almost everything

 

[BigDihDiddy]

i do feel guilty abt those i feel guilty abt many things, but parties arent smt that i actually need. its worse once it gets to things i physically need like food. this morning was the first time i had eaten since sunday night even tho i was physically so hungry and wanted to eat

Maybe from the Asian upbringing u reject good things cause u hate urself for some reason

Either from depression or most likely in ur case I think is the low show of affection from family besides grades

 

[snoblomov]

your ed is not an issue if you just maintain your health and have a well thought out goal/plan. any sensible person would see that as inspiring actualization of the self. (though concern can come out of love let's be real it's usually coming from jealousy)

 

[yung foid]

your ed is not an issue if you just maintain your health and have a well thought out goal/plan. any sensible person would see that as inspiring actualization of the self. (though concern can come out of love let's be real it's usually coming from jealousy)

is it rly considered an ed if it has nth to do w weight or appearance like i dont strictly monitor my weight and cals and stuff

 

[Starlet]

is it rly considered an ed if it has nth to do w weight or appearance like i dont strictly monitor my weight and cals and stuff

no it really wouldn’t, at least not standard ED’s like anorexia and bulimia. Symptoms/behaviors of different conditions can present the same on the surface but the pathology and reasoning behind it is very important

 

[Anna]

God loves u

Just live ur life