Look, you may not trust me at the moment but really all I wanted is to be myself with you. I tried being honest the best I can, maybe a bit too much at the detriment of our dynamics.
I really, really loved you, you genuinely made me feel I mattered to someone and that I was something else than a miserable unloveable lover like I like to pretend. I thought it was clear that I was very lucky to be with you and that I would do anything to keep what we had.
I really thought you could be the one to understand me, which is why I'm saddened you somehow don't believe me when everyone else does. I know what she said to you was such an emotional bomb and that you're still is deeply hurt and that is why you're taking your distances from me, which I understand.
But you're the only girl I've genuinely loved in my life even if it's all online, I can't tell if you love the same back but I know at the very least you love me in some way.
If you want to forget all this, get with someone else and cuck me, so be it. Just have the kindness to not give me any more false hopes. If there's some part of you that resonates with what I'm saying then I'll be more than glad to establish a dialogue to clear any misunderstandings instead of fleeing each other.