As i have no one to say this to I'll just post this here. If you came here just to say dnr then gtfo

I've just been frustrated with this for a long time and I need to post this somewhere to feel better
Okay to start i literally love my friends so much and I love spending time with them even if we just sit together and watch a movie.
Thats why I always get so excited when we finally have a set date for when we can meet up, I always ask the day before we meet if they still have the energy or the time to meet just to make sure. That's why it hurts so much that still after all that they just cancel last minute.
One time I literally cancelled going to a musical I really like just to meet up with my friend that I haven't seen for over a month, just to get a message from her saying that she's too locked in on valorant to go out. When I tell her that I kinda cancelled a big thing just for her she just replies with sorry and a lol at the end.
Why doesn't my time matter to them? I literally cancelled my plans with my boyfriend once just so I can comfort my friend after her break up just to be met with the exact opposite of that when I was the one going through a breakup. She never once even comforted me and all she said is that she feels bad for my ex instead of me and that I'm horrible to him, which she already told me a shit ton of times before.
I really don't ask for much, all I want is to meet once or twice a month and maybe play games together sometimes. And if you cancel our meeting then at least make effort to make it up to me by setting up a date for when we can meet next time. Because I feel so stupid always being the one to beg for my friends to see me, do they not like me enough to just ask me themselves? It's not like they don't have enough time for me as I keep seeing their Instagram stories where they go out with their classmates or do all those cool activities.
Okay to start i literally love my friends so much and I love spending time with them even if we just sit together and watch a movie.
Thats why I always get so excited when we finally have a set date for when we can meet up, I always ask the day before we meet if they still have the energy or the time to meet just to make sure. That's why it hurts so much that still after all that they just cancel last minute.
One time I literally cancelled going to a musical I really like just to meet up with my friend that I haven't seen for over a month, just to get a message from her saying that she's too locked in on valorant to go out. When I tell her that I kinda cancelled a big thing just for her she just replies with sorry and a lol at the end.
Why doesn't my time matter to them? I literally cancelled my plans with my boyfriend once just so I can comfort my friend after her break up just to be met with the exact opposite of that when I was the one going through a breakup. She never once even comforted me and all she said is that she feels bad for my ex instead of me and that I'm horrible to him, which she already told me a shit ton of times before.
I really don't ask for much, all I want is to meet once or twice a month and maybe play games together sometimes. And if you cancel our meeting then at least make effort to make it up to me by setting up a date for when we can meet next time. Because I feel so stupid always being the one to beg for my friends to see me, do they not like me enough to just ask me themselves? It's not like they don't have enough time for me as I keep seeing their Instagram stories where they go out with their classmates or do all those cool activities.