why do i have to be me

[Devious_Egg]

id rather be a ltb with a family that loves me
with genuine friends
who dont hate herself
who dont push away the things she want
who dont act narcissistic but really just to mask how deep she fucking hate herself

i want to stab myself

 

[submissivechud]

id rather be a ltb with a family that loves me
with genuine friends
who dont hate herself
who dont push away the things she want
who dont act narcissistic but really just to mask how deep she fucking hate herself

i want to stab myself

talk to your boyfriend
or
eat strawberry cake

 

[Devious_Egg]

talk to your boyfriend
or
eat strawberry cake

i dont want to be fat but i do want to eat sweet stuff

i feel like i dont deserve him
he is nt and nice and is perfect

im scared i will ruin everything like i always do
hes everyting i have

 

[submissivechud]

i dont want to be fat but i do want to eat sweet stuff

i feel like i dont deserve him
he is nt and nice and is perfect

im scared i will ruin everything like i always do
hes everyting i have

u deserve him
talk to him

 

[Devious_Egg]

u deserve him
talk to him

idk im scared
when i had my first boyfriend i opened up to him
and after we broke up everyone knew about it
and bullied me

 

[Xx_Sh4tteredHe4rt_xX]

i dont want to be fat but i do want to eat sweet stuff

i feel like i dont deserve him
he is nt and nice and is perfect

im scared i will ruin everything like i always do
hes everyting i have

if u have him u deserve him

 

[submissivechud]

idk im scared
when i had my first boyfriend i opened up to him
and after we broke up everyone knew about it
and bullied me

shoot him if he does that

 

[Trevor1]

i dont want to be fat but i do want to eat sweet stuff

i feel like i dont deserve him
he is nt and nice and is perfect

im scared i will ruin everything like i always do
hes everyting i have

Nah ur good, you're a woman

 

[Trevor1]

shoot him if he does that

Horrible advice btw

 

[submissivechud]

Horrible advice btw

not rlly

 

[Devious_Egg]

if u have him u deserve him

i just feel like a lurking freak
he was a born htn who is just very nice in general
im not
im larping as a normalperson

 

[Trevor1]

not rlly

Ur actually dodo brained sometimes bro...

 

[Devious_Egg]

not rlly

if rather end my life

 

[Devious_Egg]

Nah ur good, you're a woman

how does that make a difference

 

[Trevor1]

how does that make a difference

Cause you don't have to reach as high expectations as men do

 

[Devious_Egg]

Cause you don't have to reach as high expectations as men do

kinda true i just LDAR every day and do nothing

 

[lazerdim]

Truly relate I hate being myself and my stupid pathetic chud life.

 

[Devious_Egg]

Truly relate I hate being myself and my stupid pathetic chud life.

very relatable
i would very much want to be someone else, just anyone not me
i just ruin everything bro i just ruin every fucking thing
everything good i ruin it
i fucking hate myself

 

[lazerdim]

very relatable
i would very much want to be someone else, just anyone not me
i just ruin everything bro i just ruin every fucking thing
everything good i ruin it
i fucking hate myself

You’re so real it scares me. It’s like a curse, everything I touch and come across is automatically ruined somehow.

 

[Devious_Egg]

You’re so real it scares me. It’s like a curse, everything I touch and come across is automatically ruined somehow.

i ruin everything
everytime i get a good friend
we just grow apart soon for no fucking reason
i never had a best friend or alteast for long

 

[lazerdim]

i ruin everything
everytime i get a good friend
we just grow apart soon for no fucking reason
i never had a best friend or alteast for long

Me neither twin it fucking sucks I’m so lonely it destroys me

 

[Devious_Egg]

Me neither twin it fucking sucks I’m so lonely it destroys me

it CONSUMES you
its aweful
and i lowkey just am asking for it atp
i still have friends i just never reach out and act tuff and shit and just not talk to them for days when i feel sad
even if they ask me how im doing
but i really DO want them to care
did the same with my parents tbh but they probably fucking hate me atp

 

[lazerdim]

it CONSUMES you
its aweful
and i lowkey just am asking for it atp
i still have friends i just never reach out and act tuff and shit and just not talk to them for days when i feel sad
even if they ask me how im doing
but i really DO want them to care
did the same with my parents tbh but they probably fucking hate me atp

I feel you, I’ve just found it easier to not say anything to anybody. I feel like I’m creating a weird tension and I don’t want them to look at me differently.

 

[submissivechud]

gosh you guys are sad

 

[Devious_Egg]

I feel you, I’ve just found it easier to not say anything to anybody. I feel like I’m creating a weird tension and I don’t want them to look at me differently.

i know that tension
i sometimes wonder if they really dont even notice and its just in our head

i feel nothing but i feel everything negative and tbh even if i say it outloud no one would resonate or care so yeah its just better to STFU

 

[Devious_Egg]

gosh you guys are sad

i wish i slit my neck with some more force jfl this is just funny

 

[lazerdim]

gosh you guys are sad

How are you not, this life isn’t anything else than pure sadness and misery

 

[Devious_Egg]

How are you not, this life isn’t anything else than pure sadness and misery

he is 15 living happily with his parents i lowkey mirin

 

[submissivechud]

How are you not, this life isn’t anything else than pure sadness and misery

usually only low iq indivuals think that way

 

[Devious_Egg]

usually only low iq indivuals think that way

hey not nice

 

[submissivechud]

hey not nice

sorry
im sure youll get smarter w time

 

[lazerdim]

usually only low iq indivuals think that way

This is coming from two high iq individuals btw @Devious_Egg

 

[Devious_Egg]

sorry
im sure youll get smarter w time

if i go back to school nextyear jfl maybe
but rn i just want to rip the stitch on my neck open again

 

[Devious_Egg]

This is coming from two high iq individuals btw @Devious_Egg

im ngl i feel like if we are low iq it would be for the better because we wont feel so much pain

 

[submissivechud]

This is coming from two high iq individuals btw @Devious_Egg

no both of u are pretty stupid lol
sorry

 

[lazerdim]

no both of u are pretty and high iq lol
sorry

 

[lazerdim]

im ngl i feel like if we are low iq it would be for the better because we wont feel so much pain

Mirin the coping mechanism

 

[Devious_Egg]

Mirin the coping mechanism

but fr idk how long i can do it for i feel like id go into manic again soon and probably die

 

[lazerdim]

but fr idk how long i can do it for i feel like id go into manic again soon and probably die

Literally, it’s like a bomb ticking waiting to explode.

 

[Devious_Egg]

Literally, it’s like a bomb ticking waiting to explode.

and then it fail and locked up in a ward and everything repeats