Info 𝗥𝗲𝗰𝗼𝘃𝗲𝗿𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗳𝗿𝗼𝗺 𝗲𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗱𝗶𝘀𝗼𝗿𝗱𝗲𝗿: 𝗺𝘆 𝗲𝘅𝗽𝗲𝗿𝗶𝗲𝗻𝗰𝗲

[Whitepill]

I only lost a little amount I barely ate sugar really at that time doing a keto diet and eating only after working out but once I lost that weight nothing else has happened I'd be active everyday doing push-ups situps Russian twists, playing basketball, walking and jogging and I'd only eat like once a day when I got home, drinking a lot of water. Even now when I'm not home I do those things but it's hard to control what you eat around family yet I'm doing it now. I feel like I have a lot problem like ibs with gas in my stomach too but I understand what you all are saying I just can't stand to even look at myself after I've had a meal

Just crash your metabolism theory
Keto also hardly works

 

[gaviniguess]

bc ur acting like a r****d

hop on raw meat diet or its over for u

I was only eating roasted beef,baked chicken and vegetables and rice recently I will do that again starting thanksgiving without the rice but I came home and my mama bought pizza and told me once I told her I'm gonna fast she said it was a good idea to fast but I should eat pizza, so I feel like I ruined my body

 

[gaviniguess]

Just crash your metabolism theory
Keto also hardly works

I'm new to the terminology what does crashing my metabolism theory mean

 

[Whitepill]

I'm new to the terminology what does crashing my metabolism theory mean

The stuff you did ruined your metabolism and thus you have a lower basal metabolic rate so you have to eat less calories than before or eat more to stabilize it

 

[gaviniguess]

I'm new to the terminology what does crashing my metabolism theory mean

I'm not trying to sound or be stupid I'm serious

 

[gaviniguess]

The stuff you did ruined your metabolism and thus you have a lower basal metabolic rate so you have to eat less calories than before or eat more to stabilize it

Okay I'll try tha

 

[Whitepill]

I'm not trying to sound or be stupid I'm serious

It’s satire
Crashing metabolism = ruining it
“Just theory” is satire

 

[gaviniguess]

The stuff you did ruined your metabolism and thus you have a lower basal metabolic rate so you have to eat less calories than before or eat more to stabilize it

I swear I'm not trolling or being stupid it's just that I still see myself as I was months ago idk what it is

 

[gaviniguess]

It’s satire
Crashing metabolism = ruining it
“Just theory” is satire

I didn't know sorry

 

[RainbowDash]

I only lost a little amount I barely ate sugar really at that time doing a keto diet and eating only after working out but once I lost that weight nothing else has happened

No calorie count? Don't take this as advice ,but it doesn't matter what you eat but how many calories you consume. It's very easy to underestimate how much you're eating.

I'd be active everyday doing push-ups situps Russian twists,

And overestimate how much you're burning.Good exercises to do but they don't add much to your weight loss.

playing basketball, walking and jogging

Good but again it's mainly diet when it comes to losing weight..of couuurse you should work out so you don't just end up skinnyfat,but make sure you're actually on a calorie deficit.

 

[RainbowDash]

No calorie count? Don't take this as advice ,but it doesn't matter what you eat but how many calories you consume. It's very easy to underestimate how much you're eating.

And overestimate how much you're burning.Good exercises to do but they don't add much to your weight loss.


Good but again it's mainly diet when it comes to losing weight..of couuurse you should work out so you don't just end up skinnyfat,but make sure you're actually on a calorie deficit.

@Whitepill thx for giving gold before even reading it

 

[gaviniguess]

No calorie count? Don't take this as advice ,but it doesn't matter what you eat but how many calories you consume. It's very easy to underestimate how much you're eating.

And overestimate how much you're burning.Good exercises to do but they don't add much to your weight loss.


Good but again it's mainly diet when it comes to losing weight..of couuurse you should work out so you don't just end up skinnyfat,but make sure you're actually on a calorie deficit.

I could try the apps but what I'd do is eat say like some small pieces of beef or pork or a small chicken breast* with a plate of greens green beans cabbage etc

 

[gaviniguess]

No calorie count? Don't take this as advice ,but it doesn't matter what you eat but how many calories you consume. It's very easy to underestimate how much you're eating.

And overestimate how much you're burning.Good exercises to do but they don't add much to your weight loss.


Good but again it's mainly diet when it comes to losing weight..of couuurse you should work out so you don't just end up skinnyfat,but make sure you're actually on a calorie deficit.

N I wasn't trying to like do anything wrong in the thread this is just something I'm dealing with or thinking about

 

[gaviniguess]

I could try the apps but what I'd do is eat say like some small pieces of beef or pork or a small chicken breast with a plate of greens green beans cabbage etc

 

[RainbowDash]

I could try the apps but what I'd do is eat say like some small pieces of beef or pork or a small chicken breastfeeding with a plate of greens green beans cabbage etc

Bruh..you didn't even try calorie deficit then..get yourself a food scale and download mfp

 

[Whitepill]

@Whitepill thx for giving gold before even reading it

I read it, we just communicate on the same telepathic wavelength because of our intense connection so I could read it 4x quicker than the average human

 

[Whitepill]

I could try the apps but what I'd do is eat say like some small pieces of beef or pork or a small chicken breast* with a plate of greens green beans cabbage etc

 

[ripskeem]

I was only eating roasted beef,baked chicken and vegetables and rice recently I will do that again starting thanksgiving without the rice but I came home and my mama bought pizza and told me once I told her I'm gonna fast she said it was a good idea to fast but I should eat pizza, so I feel like I ruined my body

dude. i dont care rly. my thread was not meant for you to come and start to try and make excuses for doing what i said took me 4 years to move on from.

doesnt make me feel really good does it

 

[gaviniguess]

dude. i dont care rly. my thread was not meant for you to come and start to try and make excuses for doing what i said took me 4 years to move on from.

doesnt make me feel really good does it

My bad

 

[Cage]

People always say calorie deficit but I've tried that so many times and I've been consistently doing it it just doesn't work

damn bruh ur body goes against the laws of thermodynamics?
U should be in a lab and have tests ran on you if thats true

 

[sigma]

congratulations <3​

 

[Deleted member 45077]

First off, let me just say—you’re amazing. Overcoming something as tough as an eating disorder? That’s no small feat, and it shows just how strong and determined you are. Seriously, you’re glowing with resilience, and I’ve got to admit, it’s kind of inspiring (even to a guy with a famously handsome face like mine ).

What you’ve done isn’t just a win for you; it’s a lesson in courage for everyone else on here. Sharing your story? That’s the kind of strength and beauty that goes way beyond appearances. Keep thriving, because let’s be real—you’ve got something special, and the world is better with you out there crushing it.

 

[ripskeem]

First off, let me just say—you’re amazing. Overcoming something as tough as an eating disorder? That’s no small feat, and it shows just how strong and determined you are. Seriously, you’re glowing with resilience, and I’ve got to admit, it’s kind of inspiring (even to a guy with a famously handsome face like mine ).

What you’ve done isn’t just a win for you; it’s a lesson in courage for everyone else on here. Sharing your story? That’s the kind of strength and beauty that goes way beyond appearances. Keep thriving, because let’s be real—you’ve got something special, and the world is better with you out there crushing it.

LMAOOO thanks neil love u my bhai

 

[Whitepill]

bump

 

[MissAnonymous0192]

𝗛𝗼𝘄 𝗜 𝗗𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗹𝗼𝗽𝗲𝗱 𝗔 𝗘𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗗𝗶𝘀𝗼𝗿𝗱𝗲𝗿

I still remember the first day this all began for me. It was mid-2020, and I was 14, sitting in my room, scrolling through my phone. That’s when I came across this one beautiful girl. The video showed her crying on her bathroom floor with the caption: "My mom said it's time for dinner."

At first, I didn’t understand what it meant. Then I checked the comments and saw people providing context—they explained she had an eating disorder. For some reason, at that moment, it felt like she was telling me that if I wanted to be beautiful, I had to starve myself. If I starved myself, I thought, I could look like her.


I had no idea this moment would impact the next 4 years of my life. That same day I didn't eat anything until my mom called me for dinner. It was all I could think about that day. The next day I repeated this cycle. I would start engaging with ED videos and content until that was all on my feed. I came across someone talking about "EDtwt" ( Eating Disorder Twitter, a side of Twitter that promotes such stuff ). I decided to look into it and it sent me down a rabbit hole. I remember that same day, I must have spent 3 hours just looking through all the threads, thinspo, fatspo, meanspo, sweetspo, all of this content enabled me further. It was triggering me more and more.



𝗧𝗵𝗲 𝗜𝗺𝗽𝗮𝗰𝘁

I recall the nights when I would just stay up staring at myself in the mirror crying, telling myself over and over again "You are fat, you are ugly, no one will ever love you if you look like this." I would hide myself in baggy clothing. Feelings like I had to shield others around me from how ugly my body was to look at.

Somehow, I can’t recall exactly how, but my coworkers caught on to what I was doing. They would have endless talks with me, telling me I shouldn’t be doing this and that I needed help. I wouldn’t listen—I’d try to defend myself. Looking back, I realize how insane I sounded, and how mentally ill I truly was. My coworkers even started taking me out to dinner after our shifts, trying their best to help me. I felt immense guilt walking to the restaurant's back room to purge it all up. I felt sad knowing my coworkers were trying to help me but nothing they did helped me because I was so convinced at the time that they were trying to sabotage me but in reality, they were trying to help me.

I distance myself from my friends because I associate social events with the involvement of food and I would rather stay home than risk the chance of me having natural urges to eat. This then caused me to lose all my friends. I was alone and all I had was the goal weight I was trying so desperately to achieve. I stopped doing my school work because the lack of foodI hurt my focus. I became angry every day because I would be starving. I put my anger out on everyone, including my parents which fortunately caused them to catch onto what was happening.

𝗥𝗲𝗰𝗼𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘆 𝗔𝘁𝘁𝗲𝗺𝗽𝘁

My parents found out what I was doing and decided to send me to a recovery center this past January ( 2024 ) . I spent 2 months there. Looking back it wasn't that bad and I started to really recover. I met some nice friends there and it was nice to be in an environment surrounded with people who I felt understood me. When I returned in March I thought that I was freed. I started to eat normally again and reconnected with all the people I stopped talking to. For the first time in 3 years, t I felt happy again. Until, I met a person of interest.





𝗥𝗲𝗹𝗮𝗽𝘀𝗲

In May I met a guy. I was so interested in him and I wanted to be perfect for him. So I relapsed, and all those edTWT propaganda tweets of "no one will love you if you're fat" returned. I started to stave myself again, I re-downloaded Twitter and it felt as if I was at the start again, repeating this endless, pain-ridden cycle. The days when I would go see him and I thought I looked too fat I would cry. I begin to despise myself once more.

One night I was going on the train home after seeing him and I started to cry, not because I thought I looked fat that day but because I realized he didn't think I was fat. I never was fat. I made all of this up in my head. It's almost like I was brainwashed all these years like so many others. He never looked at my body thinking it was disgusting like I thought. It didn't end there, I would now starve myself for significant intervals of time, and when I saw something triggering it would start up again and then go back down. It was a constant cycle and it felt never-ending, I felt recovered at times and at others I felt as if I had returned to my old habits


𝗥𝗲𝗰𝗼𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘆

I started to open about what what I was doing to other people, and I never thought I would listen and take to account what they told me but I did. I took the time to hear them out and reflect on what I was truly doing. I had to ask myself, "Do I want to live the rest of my life in this pain or can I let go and be happy." right then and there I made my decision, I could not go on doing this. Being sent to a recovry place was not the solution. Asking myself this simple question was. Ever since this night i've been happier, really happier because I know this time its genuine and im freed from this part of my life that used to consume me.

𝗖𝗼𝗻𝗰𝗹𝘂𝘀𝗶𝗼𝗻
Recovering from an eating disorder has been one of the hardest but most rewarding times of my life. It’s taken time, patience, and the support of those around me to rebuild a healthy relationship with food and my body. If I could say one thing to others, it’s to never let society’s unrealistic expectations make you feel less than enough, you’re worth so much more than that.


Tags - @RainbowDash @neymar @choripan @ifsixwasnine @lemonpie

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TLDR: OP details struggles with eating disorders, relapsing, and mental health as a result of eating disorders, and most peoples words did not benefit them until they found something that worked.

I hope you’re ok

 

[TonyDr]

"no one will love you if you're fat"

Only apply to men

 

[TonyDr]

@ripskeem good read, good thread

Women need to eat

 

[ripskeem]

I hope you’re ok

thank you miss

 

[Wilk]

GUYS, DO NOT SIMP

 

[ripskeem]

GUYS, DO NOT SIMP

no one is cuh

 

[RainbowDash]

no one is cuh

I am ahhhhh~~

 

[ripskeem]

I am ahhhhh~~

the only one allowed to my mama

 

[RAJ GHRANDHICK]

𝗛𝗼𝘄 𝗜 𝗗𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗹𝗼𝗽𝗲𝗱 𝗔 𝗘𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗗𝗶𝘀𝗼𝗿𝗱𝗲𝗿

I still remember the first day this all began for me. It was mid-2020, and I was 14, sitting in my room, scrolling through my phone. That’s when I came across this one beautiful girl. The video showed her crying on her bathroom floor with the caption: "My mom said it's time for dinner."

At first, I didn’t understand what it meant. Then I checked the comments and saw people providing context—they explained she had an eating disorder. For some reason, at that moment, it felt like she was telling me that if I wanted to be beautiful, I had to starve myself. If I starved myself, I thought, I could look like her.


I had no idea this moment would impact the next 4 years of my life. That same day I didn't eat anything until my mom called me for dinner. It was all I could think about that day. The next day I repeated this cycle. I would start engaging with ED videos and content until that was all on my feed. I came across someone talking about "EDtwt" ( Eating Disorder Twitter, a side of Twitter that promotes such stuff ). I decided to look into it and it sent me down a rabbit hole. I remember that same day, I must have spent 3 hours just looking through all the threads, thinspo, fatspo, meanspo, sweetspo, all of this content enabled me further. It was triggering me more and more.



𝗧𝗵𝗲 𝗜𝗺𝗽𝗮𝗰𝘁

I recall the nights when I would just stay up staring at myself in the mirror crying, telling myself over and over again "You are fat, you are ugly, no one will ever love you if you look like this." I would hide myself in baggy clothing. Feelings like I had to shield others around me from how ugly my body was to look at.

Somehow, I can’t recall exactly how, but my coworkers caught on to what I was doing. They would have endless talks with me, telling me I shouldn’t be doing this and that I needed help. I wouldn’t listen—I’d try to defend myself. Looking back, I realize how insane I sounded, and how mentally ill I truly was. My coworkers even started taking me out to dinner after our shifts, trying their best to help me. I felt immense guilt walking to the restaurant's back room to purge it all up. I felt sad knowing my coworkers were trying to help me but nothing they did helped me because I was so convinced at the time that they were trying to sabotage me but in reality, they were trying to help me.

I distance myself from my friends because I associate social events with the involvement of food and I would rather stay home than risk the chance of me having natural urges to eat. This then caused me to lose all my friends. I was alone and all I had was the goal weight I was trying so desperately to achieve. I stopped doing my school work because the lack of foodI hurt my focus. I became angry every day because I would be starving. I put my anger out on everyone, including my parents which fortunately caused them to catch onto what was happening.

𝗥𝗲𝗰𝗼𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘆 𝗔𝘁𝘁𝗲𝗺𝗽𝘁

My parents found out what I was doing and decided to send me to a recovery center this past January ( 2024 ) . I spent 2 months there. Looking back it wasn't that bad and I started to really recover. I met some nice friends there and it was nice to be in an environment surrounded with people who I felt understood me. When I returned in March I thought that I was freed. I started to eat normally again and reconnected with all the people I stopped talking to. For the first time in 3 years, t I felt happy again. Until, I met a person of interest.





𝗥𝗲𝗹𝗮𝗽𝘀𝗲

In May I met a guy. I was so interested in him and I wanted to be perfect for him. So I relapsed, and all those edTWT propaganda tweets of "no one will love you if you're fat" returned. I started to stave myself again, I re-downloaded Twitter and it felt as if I was at the start again, repeating this endless, pain-ridden cycle. The days when I would go see him and I thought I looked too fat I would cry. I begin to despise myself once more.

One night I was going on the train home after seeing him and I started to cry, not because I thought I looked fat that day but because I realized he didn't think I was fat. I never was fat. I made all of this up in my head. It's almost like I was brainwashed all these years like so many others. He never looked at my body thinking it was disgusting like I thought. It didn't end there, I would now starve myself for significant intervals of time, and when I saw something triggering it would start up again and then go back down. It was a constant cycle and it felt never-ending, I felt recovered at times and at others I felt as if I had returned to my old habits


𝗥𝗲𝗰𝗼𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘆

I started to open about what what I was doing to other people, and I never thought I would listen and take to account what they told me but I did. I took the time to hear them out and reflect on what I was truly doing. I had to ask myself, "Do I want to live the rest of my life in this pain or can I let go and be happy." right then and there I made my decision, I could not go on doing this. Being sent to a recovry place was not the solution. Asking myself this simple question was. Ever since this night i've been happier, really happier because I know this time its genuine and im freed from this part of my life that used to consume me.

𝗖𝗼𝗻𝗰𝗹𝘂𝘀𝗶𝗼𝗻
Recovering from an eating disorder has been one of the hardest but most rewarding times of my life. It’s taken time, patience, and the support of those around me to rebuild a healthy relationship with food and my body. If I could say one thing to others, it’s to never let society’s unrealistic expectations make you feel less than enough, you’re worth so much more than that.


Tags - @RainbowDash @neymar @choripan @ifsixwasnine @lemonpie

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TLDR: OP details struggles with eating disorders, relapsing, and mental health as a result of eating disorders, and most peoples words did not benefit them until they found something that worked.

i tried but couldn't t develop eating disorder cause i am addicted to food ( i am also a lil fat)

 

[ripskeem]

i tried but couldn't t develop eating disorder cause i am addicted to food ( i am also a lil fat)View attachment 54991

LOL just do caloric deficit

 

[RAJ GHRANDHICK]

LOL just do caloric deficit

i can't i am addicted to food (its the reason i am fat)

 

[RAJ GHRANDHICK]

Okay now I did read everything
It's so fucked up how a 14yo can be in contact with that side of internet
Anyways you surpassed the struggle so congratulations
Why are you on looksmaxxing.com tho

twitter is full of narcy retards never downloading that shit

 

[ripskeem]

i can't i am addicted to food (its the reason i am fat)
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try to start slowly over time u will get used to it trust

 

[RAJ GHRANDHICK]

try to start slowly over time u will get used to it trust

i was joking i can go 2 days without eating easily if i want to
its just my mother forces me to eat and when i eat i eat a lot

 

[ripskeem]

i was joking i can go 2 days without eating easily if i want to
its just my mother forces me to eat and when i eat i eat a lot

oh lol i get that thats what it was like for me like a month ago
i wish u the best tho

 

[Whitepill]

Only apply to men

It applies to women as well
Fat and ugly women are more likely to be treated as sex objects than human beings

 

[nr4tt]

I came across someone talking about "EDtwt" ( Eating Disorder Twitter, a side of Twitter that promotes such stuff ). I decided to look into it and it sent me down a rabbit hole. I remember that same day, I must have spent 3 hours just looking through all the threads, thinspo, fatspo, meanspo, sweetspo, all of this content enabled me further. It was triggering me more and more.

I started to open about what what I was doing to other people, and I never thought I would listen and take to account what they told me but I did. I took the time to hear them out and reflect on what I was truly doing. I had to ask myself, "Do I want to live the rest of my life in this pain or can I let go and be happy." right then and there I made my decision, I could not go on doing this. Being sent to a recovry place was not the solution. Asking myself this simple question was. Ever since this night i've been happier, really happier because I know this time its genuine and im freed from this part of my life that used to consume me.
Recovering from an eating disorder has been one of the hardest but most rewarding times of my life. It’s taken time, patience, and the support of those around me to rebuild a healthy relationship with food and my body. If I could say one thing to others, it’s to never let society’s unrealistic expectations make you feel less than enough, you’re worth so much more than that.

edtwt is so bad bro, don't even get me started on shedtwt
I'd never wish anyone to become apart of it, I'm glad you managed to recover from it
wish you the best and I hope you don't come back to it, that side of twitter is hell

 

[TonyDr]

Fat and ugly women are more likely to be treated as sex objects than human beings

Still an infinite SMV + some women doesn't mind being ONS for busy guys, but you're right

 

[sigma]

I am ahhhhh~~

the only one allowed to my mama

i was having certain sapphic fantasies involving you two while i was making eggs earlier, is this a sign?
i can tell this tale my brain has conjured up but i wont derail the thread

 

[ripskeem]

i was having certain sapphic fantasies involving you two while i was making eggs earlier, is this a sign?
i can tell this tale my brain has conjured up but i wont derail the thread

its a sign

 

[Deleted member 42538]

𝗛𝗼𝘄 𝗜 𝗗𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗹𝗼𝗽𝗲𝗱 𝗔 𝗘𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗗𝗶𝘀𝗼𝗿𝗱𝗲𝗿

I still remember the first day this all began for me. It was mid-2020, and I was 14, sitting in my room, scrolling through my phone. That’s when I came across this one beautiful girl. The video showed her crying on her bathroom floor with the caption: "My mom said it's time for dinner."

At first, I didn’t understand what it meant. Then I checked the comments and saw people providing context—they explained she had an eating disorder. For some reason, at that moment, it felt like she was telling me that if I wanted to be beautiful, I had to starve myself. If I starved myself, I thought, I could look like her.


I had no idea this moment would impact the next 4 years of my life. That same day I didn't eat anything until my mom called me for dinner. It was all I could think about that day. The next day I repeated this cycle. I would start engaging with ED videos and content until that was all on my feed. I came across someone talking about "EDtwt" ( Eating Disorder Twitter, a side of Twitter that promotes such stuff ). I decided to look into it and it sent me down a rabbit hole. I remember that same day, I must have spent 3 hours just looking through all the threads, thinspo, fatspo, meanspo, sweetspo, all of this content enabled me further. It was triggering me more and more.



𝗧𝗵𝗲 𝗜𝗺𝗽𝗮𝗰𝘁

I recall the nights when I would just stay up staring at myself in the mirror crying, telling myself over and over again "You are fat, you are ugly, no one will ever love you if you look like this." I would hide myself in baggy clothing. Feelings like I had to shield others around me from how ugly my body was to look at.

Somehow, I can’t recall exactly how, but my coworkers caught on to what I was doing. They would have endless talks with me, telling me I shouldn’t be doing this and that I needed help. I wouldn’t listen—I’d try to defend myself. Looking back, I realize how insane I sounded, and how mentally ill I truly was. My coworkers even started taking me out to dinner after our shifts, trying their best to help me. I felt immense guilt walking to the restaurant's back room to purge it all up. I felt sad knowing my coworkers were trying to help me but nothing they did helped me because I was so convinced at the time that they were trying to sabotage me but in reality, they were trying to help me.

I distance myself from my friends because I associate social events with the involvement of food and I would rather stay home than risk the chance of me having natural urges to eat. This then caused me to lose all my friends. I was alone and all I had was the goal weight I was trying so desperately to achieve. I stopped doing my school work because the lack of foodI hurt my focus. I became angry every day because I would be starving. I put my anger out on everyone, including my parents which fortunately caused them to catch onto what was happening.

𝗥𝗲𝗰𝗼𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘆 𝗔𝘁𝘁𝗲𝗺𝗽𝘁

My parents found out what I was doing and decided to send me to a recovery center this past January ( 2024 ) . I spent 2 months there. Looking back it wasn't that bad and I started to really recover. I met some nice friends there and it was nice to be in an environment surrounded with people who I felt understood me. When I returned in March I thought that I was freed. I started to eat normally again and reconnected with all the people I stopped talking to. For the first time in 3 years, t I felt happy again. Until, I met a person of interest.





𝗥𝗲𝗹𝗮𝗽𝘀𝗲

In May I met a guy. I was so interested in him and I wanted to be perfect for him. So I relapsed, and all those edTWT propaganda tweets of "no one will love you if you're fat" returned. I started to stave myself again, I re-downloaded Twitter and it felt as if I was at the start again, repeating this endless, pain-ridden cycle. The days when I would go see him and I thought I looked too fat I would cry. I begin to despise myself once more.

One night I was going on the train home after seeing him and I started to cry, not because I thought I looked fat that day but because I realized he didn't think I was fat. I never was fat. I made all of this up in my head. It's almost like I was brainwashed all these years like so many others. He never looked at my body thinking it was disgusting like I thought. It didn't end there, I would now starve myself for significant intervals of time, and when I saw something triggering it would start up again and then go back down. It was a constant cycle and it felt never-ending, I felt recovered at times and at others I felt as if I had returned to my old habits


𝗥𝗲𝗰𝗼𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘆

I started to open about what what I was doing to other people, and I never thought I would listen and take to account what they told me but I did. I took the time to hear them out and reflect on what I was truly doing. I had to ask myself, "Do I want to live the rest of my life in this pain or can I let go and be happy." right then and there I made my decision, I could not go on doing this. Being sent to a recovry place was not the solution. Asking myself this simple question was. Ever since this night i've been happier, really happier because I know this time its genuine and im freed from this part of my life that used to consume me.

𝗖𝗼𝗻𝗰𝗹𝘂𝘀𝗶𝗼𝗻
Recovering from an eating disorder has been one of the hardest but most rewarding times of my life. It’s taken time, patience, and the support of those around me to rebuild a healthy relationship with food and my body. If I could say one thing to others, it’s to never let society’s unrealistic expectations make you feel less than enough, you’re worth so much more than that.


Tags - @RainbowDash @neymar @choripan @ifsixwasnine @lemonpie

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thats awesome good job God bless you

 

[Aluminineiuemiumeam]

I read recently that eating disorders in girls are on the way out, now all the girls who are afraid of adulthood all become trans. Kind of horrifying that a vulnerable girl will have her reproductive organs removed by Dr. Frankenstein these days.

 

[CurryMOgger]

never experienced it, can't relate

 

[Frax]

tldr?

 

[mazolay]

So Glad your doing better. As a teen it can really be hard sometimes, and I hope your mental only continues to keep improving

 

[BodieDysmorphia]

𝗛𝗼𝘄 𝗜 𝗗𝗲𝘃𝗲𝗹𝗼𝗽𝗲𝗱 𝗔 𝗘𝗮𝘁𝗶𝗻𝗴 𝗗𝗶𝘀𝗼𝗿𝗱𝗲𝗿

I still remember the first day this all began for me. It was mid-2020, and I was 14, sitting in my room, scrolling through my phone. That’s when I came across this one beautiful girl. The video showed her crying on her bathroom floor with the caption: "My mom said it's time for dinner."

At first, I didn’t understand what it meant. Then I checked the comments and saw people providing context—they explained she had an eating disorder. For some reason, at that moment, it felt like she was telling me that if I wanted to be beautiful, I had to starve myself. If I starved myself, I thought, I could look like her.


I had no idea this moment would impact the next 4 years of my life. That same day I didn't eat anything until my mom called me for dinner. It was all I could think about that day. The next day I repeated this cycle. I would start engaging with ED videos and content until that was all on my feed. I came across someone talking about "EDtwt" ( Eating Disorder Twitter, a side of Twitter that promotes such stuff ). I decided to look into it and it sent me down a rabbit hole. I remember that same day, I must have spent 3 hours just looking through all the threads, thinspo, fatspo, meanspo, sweetspo, all of this content enabled me further. It was triggering me more and more.



𝗧𝗵𝗲 𝗜𝗺𝗽𝗮𝗰𝘁

I recall the nights when I would just stay up staring at myself in the mirror crying, telling myself over and over again "You are fat, you are ugly, no one will ever love you if you look like this." I would hide myself in baggy clothing. Feelings like I had to shield others around me from how ugly my body was to look at.

Somehow, I can’t recall exactly how, but my coworkers caught on to what I was doing. They would have endless talks with me, telling me I shouldn’t be doing this and that I needed help. I wouldn’t listen—I’d try to defend myself. Looking back, I realize how insane I sounded, and how mentally ill I truly was. My coworkers even started taking me out to dinner after our shifts, trying their best to help me. I felt immense guilt walking to the restaurant's back room to purge it all up. I felt sad knowing my coworkers were trying to help me but nothing they did helped me because I was so convinced at the time that they were trying to sabotage me but in reality, they were trying to help me.

I distance myself from my friends because I associate social events with the involvement of food and I would rather stay home than risk the chance of me having natural urges to eat. This then caused me to lose all my friends. I was alone and all I had was the goal weight I was trying so desperately to achieve. I stopped doing my school work because the lack of foodI hurt my focus. I became angry every day because I would be starving. I put my anger out on everyone, including my parents which fortunately caused them to catch onto what was happening.

𝗥𝗲𝗰𝗼𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘆 𝗔𝘁𝘁𝗲𝗺𝗽𝘁

My parents found out what I was doing and decided to send me to a recovery center this past January ( 2024 ) . I spent 2 months there. Looking back it wasn't that bad and I started to really recover. I met some nice friends there and it was nice to be in an environment surrounded with people who I felt understood me. When I returned in March I thought that I was freed. I started to eat normally again and reconnected with all the people I stopped talking to. For the first time in 3 years, t I felt happy again. Until, I met a person of interest.





𝗥𝗲𝗹𝗮𝗽𝘀𝗲

In May I met a guy. I was so interested in him and I wanted to be perfect for him. So I relapsed, and all those edTWT propaganda tweets of "no one will love you if you're fat" returned. I started to stave myself again, I re-downloaded Twitter and it felt as if I was at the start again, repeating this endless, pain-ridden cycle. The days when I would go see him and I thought I looked too fat I would cry. I begin to despise myself once more.

One night I was going on the train home after seeing him and I started to cry, not because I thought I looked fat that day but because I realized he didn't think I was fat. I never was fat. I made all of this up in my head. It's almost like I was brainwashed all these years like so many others. He never looked at my body thinking it was disgusting like I thought. It didn't end there, I would now starve myself for significant intervals of time, and when I saw something triggering it would start up again and then go back down. It was a constant cycle and it felt never-ending, I felt recovered at times and at others I felt as if I had returned to my old habits


𝗥𝗲𝗰𝗼𝘃𝗲𝗿𝘆

I started to open about what what I was doing to other people, and I never thought I would listen and take to account what they told me but I did. I took the time to hear them out and reflect on what I was truly doing. I had to ask myself, "Do I want to live the rest of my life in this pain or can I let go and be happy." right then and there I made my decision, I could not go on doing this. Being sent to a recovry place was not the solution. Asking myself this simple question was. Ever since this night i've been happier, really happier because I know this time its genuine and im freed from this part of my life that used to consume me.

𝗖𝗼𝗻𝗰𝗹𝘂𝘀𝗶𝗼𝗻
Recovering from an eating disorder has been one of the hardest but most rewarding times of my life. It’s taken time, patience, and the support of those around me to rebuild a healthy relationship with food and my body. If I could say one thing to others, it’s to never let society’s unrealistic expectations make you feel less than enough, you’re worth so much more than that.


Tags - @RainbowDash @neymar @choripan @ifsixwasnine @lemonpie

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TLDR: OP details struggles with eating disorders, relapsing, and mental health as a result of eating disorders, and most peoples words did not benefit them until they found something that worked.

What I've learned is that the shittiest advice comes from the nicest people. The realest advice comes from the voices in your head. And the criticism that shapes that real advice comes from educated assholes with no filter.