borgesunknown'
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ldar, it's over. the more time passes, the more i realize that, even if i try to improve my appearance, it still won't be enough to feel good about myself. thanks to my bad habits from childhood and genetics, i'll be below average until the day i die.
even with all that, i have no problem getting with people above me. i just don't care. i just wanted to be better. for myself, you know?
the more time i spend consuming content about this, the less i feel like fighting it, every claim, at the bottom of every "bp" edit video, someone ends up hurt. not that i really take that part seriously, but you know, you kind of think... what if i were like that? would my life really be that bad?
and in the end the point isn't just looks. i'm ugly on the inside and outside. a while back, before i "woke up", i was a horrible person. today i'm aware of it, but all that's left is dissociating all day, alone, while i replay every piece of shit that's ever happened to me.... what a mess.
it doesn't matter anymore. and as for improving my appearance, surgeries would at most make me look like someone normal, and i didn't want to be someone normal... not that i care much, you get used to it. but maybe in another life, things will be different ...
ldar, it's over. the more time passes, the more i realize that, even if i try to improve my appearance, it still won't be enough to feel good about myself. thanks to my bad habits from childhood and genetics, i'll be below average until the day i die.
even with all that, i have no problem getting with people above me. i just don't care. i just wanted to be better. for myself, you know?
the more time i spend consuming content about this, the less i feel like fighting it, every claim, at the bottom of every "bp" edit video, someone ends up hurt. not that i really take that part seriously, but you know, you kind of think... what if i were like that? would my life really be that bad?
and in the end the point isn't just looks. i'm ugly on the inside and outside. a while back, before i "woke up", i was a horrible person. today i'm aware of it, but all that's left is dissociating all day, alone, while i replay every piece of shit that's ever happened to me.... what a mess.
it doesn't matter anymore. and as for improving my appearance, surgeries would at most make me look like someone normal, and i didn't want to be someone normal... not that i care much, you get used to it. but maybe in another life, things will be different ...
