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my zoloft stopped working same with my antipsychotics and the only thing that’s still working is my vyvance im going into an episode really bad and i think im gonna kill myself before im able to turn 17 don’t try and give me reasons to live i have plenty and ive been acknowledging them for 16 years the world is getting dull and people are getting crueler i cant find joy in anything im hanging out with my mom rn bc im making dinner and i dont even enjoy spending time with people ive already withdrawn from my friends and family i know its stupid but yeah this is a cry for help idek why because i already have people to talk to that help me a lot but i know that im not gonna be able to find lasting joy in the world til i die i think im gonna watch my favorite youtube videos from when i was a kid and listen to my aunts old vms from before she died bc i miss her im gonna go to the traintracks near my house take some painkillers to dull the pain and cut my wrists i think the traintracks are the best option because my mom or little brother wont find me again and the paramedics will find me relatively quickly so i can have an open casket i know the family i have left would appreciate that im also gonna transfer my savings to my mom and give my little brother my laptop and also some of my pokémon cards i got from my 2nd oldest brother i think to my older brother ill leave him my boxing gloves so he has smth to hit with i know he’ll be pissed and i have an old picture of us from when we’re kids so i know he’d prolly appreciate that maybe think it’s a lil gay but i know he’d appreciate it, for my oldest brother i don’t really have much to leave so maybe some of the shirts i stole and my old urbex stuff i know he’d also like my headphones then for my mom im gonna leave more pictures of us as a kid and a mother’s day note i was too scared to give her when i was 9 (she was kinda drunk jfl) but i know she’d like that i also am gonna give her some voicemails telling her how much i love her bc i dont want her to forget my voice im worried she will bc of her MS, my dad i think im gonna leave him a pair of my drumsticks because we always bonded over music and i have the first pair i ever got that have a lil blood on them from the day i played for like 5 hours and my hands bled bc i was mad lol
im 16 years old rn i turn 17 on the 21st my goal is to make it to the 22nd im not sure if i will but thats my goal i dont know if this is a cry for help or some shit i know no matter who’s there for me it won’t help out i’ve made sure everything is set up good so i won’t leave any threads not wrapped up but yeah dnr jfl tell me to do it idc i hope if i don’t get the chance to write a cya to evb that helped me out that you guys ascend and be nice to eachother bc people are too fucking mean for you to be the same i don’t think ima do it tn so ill prob respond but i don’t think there’s much to say lol thank you @iqmaxx, @junebug, @Lmtnboy1748 my jbg goat, @Dandelions, @UMTN, @giga.mia and a couple others im sure im forgetting all you guys are really nice and cool again im probably still gonna be active until june 22nd so it’ll be cool ill still rate and stuff because i really like the science around looksmaxxing and stuff because ive always been kinda insecure and in no way was my decision affected by this community at all you guys are funny and cool and i wish u guys the best but to be done yapping yeah love you guys lol
im 16 years old rn i turn 17 on the 21st my goal is to make it to the 22nd im not sure if i will but thats my goal i dont know if this is a cry for help or some shit i know no matter who’s there for me it won’t help out i’ve made sure everything is set up good so i won’t leave any threads not wrapped up but yeah dnr jfl tell me to do it idc i hope if i don’t get the chance to write a cya to evb that helped me out that you guys ascend and be nice to eachother bc people are too fucking mean for you to be the same i don’t think ima do it tn so ill prob respond but i don’t think there’s much to say lol thank you @iqmaxx, @junebug, @Lmtnboy1748 my jbg goat, @Dandelions, @UMTN, @giga.mia and a couple others im sure im forgetting all you guys are really nice and cool again im probably still gonna be active until june 22nd so it’ll be cool ill still rate and stuff because i really like the science around looksmaxxing and stuff because ive always been kinda insecure and in no way was my decision affected by this community at all you guys are funny and cool and i wish u guys the best but to be done yapping yeah love you guys lol
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