Feeling like a failure of a son

[Auggy]

Had an argument with my parents today, I was mad at how they were speaking to me, it’s as if they’re always scolding me 24/7 even when I feel like I didn’t do anything particularly wrong. Like they’ve been holding it in for a while. And from their POV, it makes sense. Compared to my sisters, I’ve been pretty much a nothing burger, didnt get as good grades as them. Didn’t get to a uni on par with them, I’m doing engineering but even that pales in comparison to what they’re all doing.

And it’s sad, because it wasn’t always like this. But as I get older, I feel like I’m getting further and further behind unless I really lock in and make a fuckton of money another way. And I owe them so much. It constantly feels like I’m always disappointing them. To the point where I wasn’t in contact with my own family for a while because I just felt I hadn’t achieved enough to show my face around them. Avoidant attachment at play here.

And they said something that, while it was true, it hurt. They said that if I kept on leaving them in the dark, there’d come a point where they’ll just stop caring. Which is completely fair and logical. But, I wasn’t avoiding them because I no longer like them, I’m disappointed with myself. They’d think I’m such a pussy for thinking that.

This shit sucks man. Been so focused on looks, probably to cope with everything else. At least I look a lot better now. But my situation is the same

 

[Luffy]

No auggy don’t blame yourself

 

[Auggy]

Pity bump. I just poured my soul out gng

 

[Auggy]

I swear it, I’m gonna be better. I’m gonna mog, and I will be successful. I won’t allow myself to keep feeling this shitty. I’m doing well in the looks department, but it’s about time I got my life together.

“I solemnly swear, from this day forward. That I will never lose again”

 

[Luffy]

I swear it, I’m gonna be better. I’m gonna mog, and I will be successful. I won’t allow myself to keep feeling this shitty. I’m doing well in the looks department, but it’s about time I got my life together.

“I solemnly swear, from this day forward. That I will never lose again”

That’s my swordsman

 

[Vikram007]

are you indian ?

 

[Vikram007]

I swear it, I’m gonna be better. I’m gonna mog, and I will be successful. I won’t allow myself to keep feeling this shitty. I’m doing well in the looks department, but it’s about time I got my life together.

“I solemnly swear, from this day forward. That I will never lose again”

someone who actually does it wont be posting stuff like this before doing it
just decide ur not gonna decide until you achieve something enough to make ur parents proud and get on it

 

[Post-punkcel]

Had an argument with my parents today, I was mad at how they were speaking to me, it’s as if they’re always scolding me 24/7 even when I feel like I didn’t do anything particularly wrong. Like they’ve been holding it in for a while. And from their POV, it makes sense. Compared to my sisters, I’ve been pretty much a nothing burger, didnt get as good grades as them. Didn’t get to a uni on par with them, I’m doing engineering but even that pales in comparison to what they’re all doing.

And it’s sad, because it wasn’t always like this. But as I get older, I feel like I’m getting further and further behind unless I really lock in and make a fuckton of money another way. And I owe them so much. It constantly feels like I’m always disappointing them. To the point where I wasn’t in contact with my own family for a while because I just felt I hadn’t achieved enough to show my face around them. Avoidant attachment at play here.

And they said something that, while it was true, it hurt. They said that if I kept on leaving them in the dark, there’d come a point where they’ll just stop caring. Which is completely fair and logical. But, I wasn’t avoiding them because I no longer like them, I’m disappointed with myself. They’d think I’m such a pussy for thinking that.

This shit sucks man. Been so focused on looks, probably to cope with everything else. At least I look a lot better now. But my situation is the same

Yeah I feel you, just recently they found out I smoked and they've been putting hell on me and it made me realize how much I've just been failing myself like I've failed them.

 

[Auggy]

someone who actually does it wont be posting stuff like this before doing it
just decide ur not gonna decide until you achieve something enough to make ur parents proud and get on it

Motivation to get me going. I’ve only been back for a day, but I’ll take another break and come back here once I’ve turned this issue around

 

[Br4va]

Damn I’m sorry you gotta go through this stuff. It suck’s but in my opinion you just gotta thug it out by showing that you understand and being apologetic (even if you don’t mean it)

This is what has been working for ke

 

[True_Fakecell]

Had an argument with my parents today, I was mad at how they were speaking to me, it’s as if they’re always scolding me 24/7 even when I feel like I didn’t do anything particularly wrong. Like they’ve been holding it in for a while. And from their POV, it makes sense. Compared to my sisters, I’ve been pretty much a nothing burger, didnt get as good grades as them. Didn’t get to a uni on par with them, I’m doing engineering but even that pales in comparison to what they’re all doing.

And it’s sad, because it wasn’t always like this. But as I get older, I feel like I’m getting further and further behind unless I really lock in and make a fuckton of money another way. And I owe them so much. It constantly feels like I’m always disappointing them. To the point where I wasn’t in contact with my own family for a while because I just felt I hadn’t achieved enough to show my face around them. Avoidant attachment at play here.

And they said something that, while it was true, it hurt. They said that if I kept on leaving them in the dark, there’d come a point where they’ll just stop caring. Which is completely fair and logical. But, I wasn’t avoiding them because I no longer like them, I’m disappointed with myself. They’d think I’m such a pussy for thinking that.

This shit sucks man. Been so focused on looks, probably to cope with everything else. At least I look a lot better now. But my situation is the same

Just tell them about your crazy ascension But on serious note I hope you find something that makes you feel like your parents are proud of you, Im scared ngl cause I might end up the same way, used to do well at school now struggling and wanting to do engineering in the future but not because I like but because of money and feeling like parents are more proud of sisters because of their accomplishments. Even if you feel bad at least know you are not alone