i first discovered black pill at FUCKING 12 and now im fucking miserable i fucking hate this even tho i look sort of good but all this looksmaxxing shit ive learned and all the insecurities i didn't even fucking knew i had is really fucking me up mentally is anyone else like this?
Look, I don’t want a dog on you because you’re a really young person but it’s one thing to be insecure about your place among your peers because of your looks, and it’s another thing to be completely black pilled.
I understand that you feel discouraged, which is OK. No one feels good about themselves most of the time. Especially at your age. I remember being a fat little pathetic slob with no neck at your age, where all my other peers were gaining muscle, looking more masculine and getting attention from girls. Stuff like that, along with other events in my life, have provided me the lens of lookism and how it ties into life.
All of that becomes a major poison upon your mind. You may think that shit is black pilled but wait until you’re in your mid 20s, trying to scrape up any bit of money you can just to pay off a single bill, or dealing with racism, whether you’re ethnic or white, I’ve seen it happen both ways. So many unfortunate circumstances out of your control that will happen to you later on in life, hopefully not, are much more black pilling than being a little chud at your current age. You're supposed to be one so you can see what you need to do.
If there’s one piece of advice that I can give you to ease your mental pain right now, is that a lot of the standards you see online are completely and utterly ridiculous. Unless you’re extremely chopped, you won’t need to inject anything or get any work done, which it seems like you don’t need. I wish I had lifted weights at a younger age. I wish I had taken better care of myself instead of neglecting my health. I wish I had worked on my personality as a young man to connect and relate even better with those around me. Those are probably the most important things that a young man like you needs in your life right now.
