I don’t even need to love myself, but i wish that I liked myself, to even just be okay with myself. I don’t see beauty in myself, I don’t think I can. Every time I look in the mirror I see the flaws, and nothing but the flaws. I wish i could be more confident and sure of myself. I don’t want to be insecure anymore. I just want to be okay as myself, comfortable in who I am. I want to like the person I am. But instead I hate myself more than I ever had. I don’t mean any of this in an attention seeking way, I know i’m not ugly but my heart refuses to accept it. I’m always looking for signs of rejection everywhere I go. I can never be at peace with my looks because as long as there’s someone else who’s better looking than me I won’t be satisfied. Someone could say 10 nice things about my looks and one bad thing and i would only care about the bad thing. I think i might have body dysmorphia tbh