idk (EXTREMELY LONG RANT)

[nomi]

sorry for the vm I didn't wanna type out everything that was on my mind
I'm not asking for advice, js felt like rambling about what I'm going thru rn with my relationship

omg I'm so sorry for the random background noise I was messing around with my keyboard
wtf bro.
also ignore my stuttering

 

[polgrev]

Omg 9 minutes

 

[ermhilol]

DNRRRRR

 

[nomi]

Omg 9 minutes

yes.

 

[nomi]

DNRRRRR

 

[polgrev]

DNRRRRR

Facts Ts will pause my music for 10 minutes hell nah

yes.

well Hope u get better soon <3

 

[nomi]

well Hope u get better soon <3

thank you

 

[Nothing.special]

9 minutes
are we serious right now bro

 

[Luffy]

sorry for the vm I didn't wanna type out everything that was on my mind
I'm not asking for advice, js felt like rambling about what I'm going thru rn with my relationship

omg I'm so sorry for the random background noise I was messing around with my keyboard
wtf bro.
also ignore my stuttering

Not listen to all that

 

[nomi]

Not listen to all that

nono guys it lwk goes by really fast

ok I didn't know it was gonna be 9 minutes long

 

[nomi]

9 minutes
are we serious right now bro

I am SO serious

 

[Nothing.special]

I am SO serious

deadass

 

[hate]

(I'll listen dw boyo)

 

[nomi]

deadass

deadass.

 

[Hypertrophy]

Can u give me summary just give me a fucking summary and I can try to help I don't even know who you are and like just give a summary

 

[Hypertrophy]

Fuck is funny mother fucker

 

[nomi]

Can u give me summary just give me a fucking summary and I can try to help I don't even know who you are and like just give a summary

boyfriend problems
debating on whether or not I'm dating a bum or not
I don't feel worthy enough for him
stuttering
and I forgot everything else that I was talking about tbh

 

[hate]

Aigh bruh I listened to this shit for 2 minutes but why is he crying over nicotine and carts

 

[Hypertrophy]

boyfriend problems
debating on whether or not I'm dating a bum or not
I don't feel worthy enough for him
stuttering
and I forgot everything else that I was talking about tbh

Have you brought these problems up with him and set up a system with him that benefits you both and satisfies both of your minds when dealing with stuff like this.

Because when you dealing with this, it gets heavy on your mind yknow. That hurts the relationship

 

[hate]

debating on whether or not I'm dating a bum or not

Yes you are

I don't feel worthy enough for him

Opposite

 

[Hypertrophy]

Yes you are

Opposite

Is he just addicted to nicotine?

 

[nomi]

Have you brought these problems up with him and set up a system with him that benefits you both and satisfies both of your minds when dealing with stuff like this.

Because when you dealing with this, it gets heavy on your mind yknow. That hurts the relationship

yes I have and he doesn't know how to manage his emotions and no matter what I do or how I express it I GET THE SAME RESULT
I'm irritated but it's wtv I still love him

 

[nomi]

Is he just addicted to nicotine?

and weed

 

[Hypertrophy]

yes I have and he doesn't know how to manage his emotions and no matter what I do or how I express it I GET THE SAME RESULT
I'm irritated but it's wtv I still love him

Maybe you just have found something that clicked? Or maybe it's too far gone I don't FUCKING no

 

[Hypertrophy]

and weed

Is he dealing with mental things and bad things in his life

 

[nomi]

Yes you are

Opposite

smh I don't like calling him a bum bc there's sm potential in him
I'm too far into this relationship and ima js see how things go from here

 

[nomi]

Maybe you just have found something that clicked? Or maybe it's too far gone I don't FUCKING no

I dont fucking know either

Is he dealing with mental things and bad things in his life

yes, heavily

 

[hate]

he doesn't know how to manage his emotions and no matter what I do or how I express it I GET THE SAME RESULT

That kinda says all you have to really know about him, no? If it's an ongoing issue that will never change, you'll both just end up hurting each other.

 

[Hypertrophy]

smh I don't like calling him a bum bc there's sm potential in him
I'm too far into this relationship and ima js see how things go from here

Maybe try to look into what things in his life make him feel like he has to resort to nicotine and cannibus in order to cope. You may find out quite a bit and you should look up how to deal with those certain things

You never know what things may be a personal complex or not and shit and I promise you your partner won't tell you trust me

 

[Hypertrophy]

yes, heavily

Like what?

 

[nomi]

That kinda says all you have to really know about him, no? If it's an ongoing issue that will never change, you'll both just end up hurting each other.

if things don't get better in a month or two I'll consider distancing myself bc I really want my mental health to stay healthy yk
and what happened today makes it SO hard to stay mad at him

 

[Hypertrophy]

if things don't get better in a month or two I'll consider distancing myself bc I really want my mental health to stay healthy yk
and what happened today makes it SO hard to stay mad at him

Can you tell us

I'm about to freak the fuck out rn I'm getting fucking mad my heart is pounding so fucking fast

 

[nomi]

Maybe try to look into what things in his life make him feel like he has to resort to nicotine and cannibus in order to cope. You may find out quite a bit and you should look up how to deal with those certain things

You never know what things may be a personal complex or not and shit and I promise you your partner won't tell you trust me

Like what?

i mentioned it in the vm his household isn't the best and other things too
but i don't want to spread his business on a random looksmaxxing website

 

[Hypertrophy]

i mentioned it in the vm his household isn't the best and other things too
but i don't want to spread his business on a random looksmaxxing website

I understand mirin the privacy u give him

I dnrd the VM uhhhh what if you just take him away from his house hold and have him live with you

 

[nomi]

Can you tell us

I'm about to freak the fuck out rn I'm getting fucking mad my heart is pounding so fucking fast

YOU SHOULD'VE LISTENED TO THE VM
don't freak the fuck out bro
basically at his house a lot of physical affection was shown towards eachother if yk what I mean

 

[hate]

if things don't get better in a month or two I'll consider distancing myself bc I really want my mental health to stay healthy yk
and what happened today makes it SO hard to stay mad at him

Reminds me of those situations where people say "oh he has his moments where he's bad, but when he's not being bad he's perfect!" or something along those lines. No amount of affection can dilute the fact that he's obviously not capable of maturing and acting the way you want him to.

 

[nomi]

I understand mirin the privacy u give him

I dnrd the VM uhhhh what if you just take him away from his house hold and have him live with you

I cant do that, I'm 15 and my parents probably wouldnt be comfortable with that either

 

[Hypertrophy]

YOU SHOULD'VE LISTENED TO THE VM

Dnrd haha

don't freak the fuck out bro
basically at his house a lot of physical affection was shown towards eachother if yk what I mean

I see uhmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm fuck I actually need to do work but I just. I can't currently, I literally can and can get easy money but my body says no


I love forgetting how I look

Uhmmmm maybe just like adopt him or something I fucking gave no thoughts to your predicament I'm sorry

 

[nomi]

Reminds me of those situations where people say "oh he has his moments where he's bad, but when he's not being bad he's perfect!" or something along those lines. No amount of affection can dilute the fact that he's obviously not capable of maturing and acting the way you want him to.

yeah..it's just hard to realize that when you're involved with someone you genuinely love
like I said before if things don't get better in a month or two I'll start distancing myself little by little

 

[nomi]

Dnrd haha

I see uhmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm fuck I actually need to do work but I just. I can't currently, I literally can and can get easy money but my body says no


I love forgetting how I look

Uhmmmm maybe just like adopt him or something I fucking gave no thoughts to your predicament I'm sorry

this was so helpful
thanks

 

[Hypertrophy]

this was so helpful
thanks

I can't think straight and you're shoving this all onto my plate and I wrwhelming me and what am I supposed to do? I can only fix so much by myself it becomes a thing where he needs to fix it or hes out

 

[nomi]

I can't think straight and you're shoving this all onto my plate and I wrwhelming me and what am I supposed to do? I can only fix so much by myself it becomes a thing where he needs to fix it or hes out

YOU'RE LITERALLY THE ONE ASKING ME MORE QUESTIONS
are you okay??

 

[Hypertrophy]

YOU'RE LITERALLY THE ONE ASKING ME MORE QUESTIONS

Fucking making me stress fuck and the I have to so some pharma bullshit and read some studies but fuck idk whann donthat

are you okay??

Yeah

 

[nomi]

Fucking making me stress fuck and the I have to so some pharma bullshit and read some studies but fuck idk whann donthat

deep breaths deep breaths
just calm down you'll be okay

 

[nomi]

Aigh bruh I listened to this shit for 2 minutes but why is he crying over nicotine and carts

did you seriously only listen to 2 minutes of it or did you finish the rest

 

[Hypertrophy]

deep breaths deep breaths
just calm down you'll be okay

Don't do that to me the only person that's allowed to do that is my girlfriend and you gotta take this energy and go to ur bf rn because then that may help him because uhmm addiction is bad b cause you're trying to escape something and you get so happy once your mind goes quiet

Then once you talk about it, it sobers you up real quick

 

[hate]

did you seriously only listen to 2 minutes of it or did you finish the rest

I listened to it

 

[nomi]

Don't do that to me the only person that's allowed to do that is my girlfriend

ok I'm sorry

and you gotta take this energy and go to ur bf rn because then that may help him because uhmm addiction is bad b cause you're trying to escape something and you get so happy once your mind goes quiet

Then once you talk about it, it sobers you up real quick

I would but he's sleeping rn
anyways go focus on studying or smth

 

[nomi]

I listened to it

finally somebody on this forum listened to one of my rants

 

[Hypertrophy]

ok I'm sorry

I would but he's sleeping rn
anyways go focus on studying or smth

Just know he ain't tryna hurt you, he's just trying to quiet things down for a couple hours