I'm so done with myself and I'm stupid for ranting about this too instead of actually doing something about it I'm js rotting on my bed everyday sleeping and missing school and missing everything and even when I go to school I sleep at school until school ends I go home I sleep In the bus I go home I sleep I wake up I go to school or just do things so meaningless I don't remember what I even do I make so many plans for myself to do but I can't even get up from my bed to do things i don't even get up to wash my face anymore or brush my teeth or change my clothes I barely eat everytime I move it's js I feel so heavy it feels exhausting to do the minimal things and I want to get my ass up and actually do something about it but I don't know bruh I don't even think it's all worth doing anymore the road to to actual shit is so long and it's all about being patient and putting hard work there's so many things to do I don't even know what I'm supposed to be even doing, I feel like such a pussy I should just get up from my bed and be normal like study go back to the gym go out with my friends but idk idk like everything I do nowadays is so meaningless that i can't even start a conversation with people it's all just empty I did nothing today I did nothing yesterday I did nothing last week I did nothing this week, what do I even talk about?? I don't even remember my dreams and when I do they're odd so why would I even tell anyone that, and I hate my sister I can't even be alone minding my business she constantly bothers me and she's like do you hate me do you hate me? She's so annoying I don't care my mum she's js going back to drinking she goes to work all day comes back first thing she does is drink, she doesn't even care if I go to school or not , I wish someone beat me up and told me to actually do something about my life, I do still have time to do stuff I know I want to do stuff but I js can't im sick too and my acne is coming back cause I keep blowing my nose