Suicidal&Lonely2007
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Sometimes i look in the mirror or at pictures of hte past and i just realize im not subhuman enough to have my life be this shit. I'm 6 foot 4, facially lmtn-mmtn. I am not subhuman enough to be like this but i just fucking ended up never being able to fit in with a group of people. I tried multiple times, when i entered high school i tried, when i switched high schools i tried again, and when that year ended i tried again with another group. I just never was allowed into the in group and always was on the out group.
If i was NT and had been raised correctly in a normal family i would not be on here. I dont even know what to do now. Everybody makes friends in like fucking kindergarten or when they enter high school and then it seems they stay in that friend group forever. I dont have anything like that. Im just alone and now that all these years have passed im mentally behind. Im 2007 and 19 but really mentally im like 2009 and 16-17 right now. I never went to any parties, no experiences, just nothing. Last 3 years of my life since summer 2023 have just been alive but dead. And the years even before that had signs.
If i was NT and had been raised correctly in a normal family i would not be on here. I dont even know what to do now. Everybody makes friends in like fucking kindergarten or when they enter high school and then it seems they stay in that friend group forever. I dont have anything like that. Im just alone and now that all these years have passed im mentally behind. Im 2007 and 19 but really mentally im like 2009 and 16-17 right now. I never went to any parties, no experiences, just nothing. Last 3 years of my life since summer 2023 have just been alive but dead. And the years even before that had signs.


well except I’m also subhuman 