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some days i get so much attention, genuine shock in everyones face, people double looking, people appraoching me , mirin and staring looking away when i look, even in a lot of crowded areas i will notice everyone is looking and it makes me happy
but then theres days i will only get maybe two stares and sometimes none and it ruins my mental health so much. to walk and see no one staring or someone looking and not caring makes me so sad not because of attention (although i do love attention and i am very grateful for it) but because i know they didnt register me as extremely good looking and therefore like they dont think highly of me or i am not worth them or smth and its rlly bad but my mind plants this into me even though there is days where the amount of attention i get is crazy.
what should i do? it gen mentally destroys me
and its werid because the one day of no attention will make me forget the other days
but then theres days i will only get maybe two stares and sometimes none and it ruins my mental health so much. to walk and see no one staring or someone looking and not caring makes me so sad not because of attention (although i do love attention and i am very grateful for it) but because i know they didnt register me as extremely good looking and therefore like they dont think highly of me or i am not worth them or smth and its rlly bad but my mind plants this into me even though there is days where the amount of attention i get is crazy.
what should i do? it gen mentally destroys me
and its werid because the one day of no attention will make me forget the other days