Ninjapro8080
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I feel like im constantly reminded I'm not 6 foot and I'm living in my brothers shadow constantly me 15 5'9. him 18 6'2 everyone treats him better then me he gets more respect. He also has a girlfriend I've never even held a girls hand let alone have a real friend my mom homeschooled us both we both played baseball growing up he grew up skinny I grew up chubby. I have this one memory that made me wanna kill myself every day for some reason he was little older than me so he played in a league higher of course so I would sit in the bleachers/stands some games well this day in specific a group of about almost 10 girls in the stands start talking about my brother they talk about the him in the ways you would think they do the usual omagosh he's so dreamy oh my gosh girl his legs are so long. Meanwhile I'm sitting in the stands sweating because I've never been this close to so many girls. It's so fucked too because i remember thinking to myself oh this is so weird i wouldn't want this to happen to me it would be so annoying (i was coping).Another memory I have which is even more brutal is taking a picture after one of his games with two random girls that wanted a picture with him I took the picture for him. I don't even know what do anymore and I'm actually suicidal from this I remember being younger and thinking yeah I'll be 6 foot he's 6 foot so yeah I'll be good just a late bloomer right right?? Yeah well I was wrong I'm more fit then I've ever been in my life rn cardio daily. workouts almost every day with rest on the weekends still in baseball the point is sometimes life is unfair. Can someone just say I'll be six foot by the time I'm 16 please I can't take this anymore.