when I was at my lowest I would always tell myself that once I level up in life I'll start feeling good , since then I've lost a huge amount of weight , started looking better , had a couple experiences with girls , travelled , made decent amounts of money, built a decent social circle . I'll be the one to tell you , none of that shit matters , if you didn't thrive during your childhood / middle and high school it's over , leveling up later in life will never make up for the fact that you were lonely and miserable during the years that were supposed to be the best of your life , it's no surprise that when you ask older people about their best memories they always tell you stories about when they were kids or teenagers , I won't have story to remember about those times , now I'm just watching time fly looking for a sense of satisfaction that will never come