just needed to vent

[mdj06]

Hey everyone, hope you’re good. I only made this account to say how bad I think I’ve gotten because of this whole looksmaxxing thing. I used to be a good-looking kid, always getting compliments. My mom is really pretty and my dad looked good when he was younger too. But I had facial issues and breathed through my mouth all through puberty, and that messed up my face in ways I honestly hate now, like a recessed jaw and stuff. After that I just never really felt successful again.

I joined this community to learn more, but instead I feel stuck in this loop I can’t escape, and every time I try to step away I come back feeling even more unmotivated and sometimes thinking about not wanting to be here anymore. I feel so shitty about my appearance that I can’t even function properly. I got into the best university in my country, classes just started, and I don’t feel like talking to anyone, which is crazy because I used to be excited about that. I’m embarrassed to take pictures, embarrassed to be in videos, embarrassed to even show up. I’ve basically given up on almost everything.

The only thing giving me some kind of hope is knowing my issues could be fixed with surgery, but now I’m obsessed with that and telling myself I won’t date or get close to anyone until I fix my “flaws.” It’s the only thing I think about all day. I keep checking myself in the mirror, feeling bad, trying to avoid it, and then doing it again anyway. I do well academically, I’ve even won medals in science competitions, but I don’t feel proud or excited about any of it anymore. I’ve been trying to help the people I care about, like buying some chocolate just to see my mom smile, at least so I don’t feel completely useless inside.

I know a bunch of teens are probably going to say dumb stuff. Whatever. Idc. I just never thought I’d end up like this and I really hope no one else here feels the same way.

 

[purposmaxxing]

Hey everyone, hope you’re good. I only made this account to say how bad I think I’ve gotten because of this whole looksmaxxing thing. I used to be a good-looking kid, always getting compliments. My mom is really pretty and my dad looked good when he was younger too. But I had facial issues and breathed through my mouth all through puberty, and that messed up my face in ways I honestly hate now, like a recessed jaw and stuff. After that I just never really felt successful again.

I joined this community to learn more, but instead I feel stuck in this loop I can’t escape, and every time I try to step away I come back feeling even more unmotivated and sometimes thinking about not wanting to be here anymore. I feel so shitty about my appearance that I can’t even function properly. I got into the best university in my country, classes just started, and I don’t feel like talking to anyone, which is crazy because I used to be excited about that. I’m embarrassed to take pictures, embarrassed to be in videos, embarrassed to even show up. I’ve basically given up on almost everything.

The only thing giving me some kind of hope is knowing my issues could be fixed with surgery, but now I’m obsessed with that and telling myself I won’t date or get close to anyone until I fix my “flaws.” It’s the only thing I think about all day. I keep checking myself in the mirror, feeling bad, trying to avoid it, and then doing it again anyway. I do well academically, I’ve even won medals in science competitions, but I don’t feel proud or excited about any of it anymore. I’ve been trying to help the people I care about, like buying some chocolate just to see my mom smile, at least so I don’t feel completely useless inside.

I know a bunch of teens are probably going to say dumb stuff. Whatever. Idc. I just never thought I’d end up like this and I really hope no one else here feels the same way.

similar situtation, I deascened pretty badly, I went from really good looking to above average due to depression, its crazy how hard it is to escape this feeling of just not wanting to even do anything because you know how badly you stooped down and its hard to bear that, I mean its not like my whole facial structure deascneded its just that my health indicators got really shit and I let myself go and now I hav e several eating disorders and my life sucks I been skipping school I ruined all my relationships with people my whole life is revolved around maximizing my genetic potential and it sucks to know how badly I'm js nerfed by face fat like I'm legit lean and still bro idk I'm not even gonna get into it similar situation tho lol

 

[purposmaxxing]

It also sucks because I'm not doing everything it takes so it just weighs me down its like I'm too lazy still I don't even know how to explain it lmao but my diet is sum dogshit cu zz I'm js in endless depression because of it its nerfing my looks badly I js wish I could have went back in time and maintained good looks for the rest of my life