I cheated on my boyfriend, well, my 2 week boyfriend, I feel so guilty, honestly, I think im gonna tell him, my teacher said that nobody should know abt it but im feeling really bad, I don't wanna get my teacher in trouble, he supported me a lot when he found out I got hit at home, I feel my bf won't tell anyone, its just gonna hurt him a lot, and probably he is gonna hate me and feel disgusted about me. it was my first time and hurted so much, It didn't even felt good, and he was really bad tbh, I thought that by being 40-something he would know better or something but he actually cringed me out, at least he took me to a really nice hotel. I couldn't even came and got really dizzy during it, I thought I was gonna pass out, couldn't feel my hands, my feet, I told him but he didn't really stopped, I laid down and then he said "turn around" and f. me, he said I wasn't even tight but I feel its because his dick was really small, how tf if im not tight I feel pain rn from the penetration. idk guys, I just wanted to share this shit, gonna erase later :/ what u think? I can't help it, I feel im very sexually attracted to older man