today, it hit me hard
it was a feeling i had never experienced before. this one gave me chills.
it was the one of the most fearfully depressing moments in my life.
i dont know where it came from... but it was related to the monotony and emptiness of our lives as a whole...
the root causes are i feel like also the society we live in. my isolation may also be another reason, since i havent formed any meaningful relationship in months.... it really sucks that the dead apartments i live in , literally cant socialise with anyone, going to school is my only way to possibly meet new people wowww.
my brain is so different now... i never felt any emptiness or depression as a child ever, i couldnt even figure out what it meant to be depressed.
its so fucking weird and depressing, i dont understand myself and my own brain and how to operate in this mess. when i trust my own instincts, it leads to a comfortable disaster of my life, idk who to even trust tbh
just wanted to share my experience on this forum because i have nowhere else, im banned on .org unfortunately
i cant really say whether i will be in an okay mental state forever, its very brutal, very very brutal. i hope things dont go even more downhill tbh. i am starting to watch more jordan peterson and some of his advice helps but he himself is a drug junkie sometimes.
lmaooo andrew tate and jordan are the only few ppl in the masculine space who talk about these serious issues... idk what everyone else is doing. clowning? is this a fucming joke, why is it not taught, why is not yet a serious issue? am i really that different.
it was a feeling i had never experienced before. this one gave me chills.
it was the one of the most fearfully depressing moments in my life.
i dont know where it came from... but it was related to the monotony and emptiness of our lives as a whole...
the root causes are i feel like also the society we live in. my isolation may also be another reason, since i havent formed any meaningful relationship in months.... it really sucks that the dead apartments i live in , literally cant socialise with anyone, going to school is my only way to possibly meet new people wowww.
my brain is so different now... i never felt any emptiness or depression as a child ever, i couldnt even figure out what it meant to be depressed.
its so fucking weird and depressing, i dont understand myself and my own brain and how to operate in this mess. when i trust my own instincts, it leads to a comfortable disaster of my life, idk who to even trust tbh
just wanted to share my experience on this forum because i have nowhere else, im banned on .org unfortunately
i cant really say whether i will be in an okay mental state forever, its very brutal, very very brutal. i hope things dont go even more downhill tbh. i am starting to watch more jordan peterson and some of his advice helps but he himself is a drug junkie sometimes.
lmaooo andrew tate and jordan are the only few ppl in the masculine space who talk about these serious issues... idk what everyone else is doing. clowning? is this a fucming joke, why is it not taught, why is not yet a serious issue? am i really that different.
