i regret many things, a major one is basically starving myself/heavily restricting myself to the point i no longer cared about anything else but being skinny, all i thought about was food, i turned into a nasty and judgmental person. eventually i broke down and got a binge-restrict eating problem. i didn’t see anyone for months, i was embarrassed of what i had become. i had gained a ton of weight in such little time due to my binging, at one point i was throwing up my food. i do feel that if i hadn’t gone through that i wouldn’t be where i am now, healthy, strong, and feeling much better than before. i look back at that time and feel so bad for my past self.