genuinely why do i overthink literally everything? like there is not a single decision i overthink to the point of regret. last night my friend one who i’m trying to get closer to, called me and asked if i wanted her to pick me up right now and do a side quest or smth and it was kinda late so i said no that my dad would be mad. which i now really regret because im pretty sure she got trashed last night and was too hungover it tired to hang out, which we had planned to do. and ever since ive been mentally beating myself up over it because my FOMO is so bad. did everyone have fun without me? i’m so dumb for saying no, she probably thinks im a loser who doesn’t know how to have fun? i’m always prepared for rejection, to have people hate me. the only thing that’s held true through out my life; ending up alone, and sad. why would i believe anything else.
