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I haven't masturbated in a week, maybe a month. I have low sex-drive, but I felt I needed some exercise, and to take a break from my daily work drudgery that drains me of energy. So I was planning to masturbate.
Long story short, to get to the point. I was browsing on new ways to masturbate, since I was tired of masturbating with my hands. The first site was a LGBT website. The LGBT website made me feel the least queasy and sick out of all the websites. Each website made me feel more and more sick, more and more queasy. As I browsed each website, I felt less and less cis. At the beginning, before browsing any websites, I was thinking about hot luscious dick. As I browsed more and more websites talking about masturbation, I started to become more and more queasy around the topic of penis and masturbation. And their corny penis references, such as calling it a "meat-stick", made me want to hurl.
I ended up changing my search terms to "the best masturbation toys". This also made me feel sick as well. Each toy seemed lame and made me want to be less and less cis. Could also be the smell. Can't stand my own smell. https://www.quotes.net/mquote/60288
The final nail in the straw though. One website of capitalism. Talking about masturbation. But on the side it is plastered by ads, some of the ads were articles about deaths from diseases. While article is casually talking about masturbation. Its disgusting and a complete lack of humanity. Society has a complete lack of humanity.
Last night I had a dream I was in a mansion filled with monsters. Some DC comic villians such as the Penguin and Joker. But the worst one in the mansion was a rich normie. He kept buying his normie gf millions of dollars worth of bling every hour, probably because of hypergamy, maybe because he was only MTN in looks and he didn't want her to cheat on him? And for some reason I felt that guy was the worst and all the monsters hated him.
Long story short, to get to the point. I was browsing on new ways to masturbate, since I was tired of masturbating with my hands. The first site was a LGBT website. The LGBT website made me feel the least queasy and sick out of all the websites. Each website made me feel more and more sick, more and more queasy. As I browsed each website, I felt less and less cis. At the beginning, before browsing any websites, I was thinking about hot luscious dick. As I browsed more and more websites talking about masturbation, I started to become more and more queasy around the topic of penis and masturbation. And their corny penis references, such as calling it a "meat-stick", made me want to hurl.
I ended up changing my search terms to "the best masturbation toys". This also made me feel sick as well. Each toy seemed lame and made me want to be less and less cis. Could also be the smell. Can't stand my own smell. https://www.quotes.net/mquote/60288
The final nail in the straw though. One website of capitalism. Talking about masturbation. But on the side it is plastered by ads, some of the ads were articles about deaths from diseases. While article is casually talking about masturbation. Its disgusting and a complete lack of humanity. Society has a complete lack of humanity.
Last night I had a dream I was in a mansion filled with monsters. Some DC comic villians such as the Penguin and Joker. But the worst one in the mansion was a rich normie. He kept buying his normie gf millions of dollars worth of bling every hour, probably because of hypergamy, maybe because he was only MTN in looks and he didn't want her to cheat on him? And for some reason I felt that guy was the worst and all the monsters hated him.